{"id":381,"date":"2005-12-02T13:16:48","date_gmt":"2005-12-02T13:16:48","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"-0001-11-30T00:00:00","modified_gmt":"-0001-11-29T21:00:00","slug":"zeynep","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2005\/12\/02\/zeynep\/","title":{"rendered":"zeynep"},"content":{"rendered":"

sabah gazeteyi kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rken, ak\u015fam televizyonda “men of honor<\/a>“\u0131 vereceklerini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u00f6yle ah\u0131m \u015fah\u0131m bir film de\u011fildi lakin, bu filmi alex, bet\u00fcl ve zeynep ile seyretmi\u015ftik, o g\u00fcnler akl\u0131ma geldi (5 sene olmu\u015f).<\/p>\n

arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 uzun uzun anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m sayfalar yazmak ne zamand\u0131r akl\u0131mda ama bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ba\u015flayamad\u0131m, ama \u00e7ok ama \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fim zeynep’i b\u00f6yle bir vesileyle anmasam olmaz. <\/p>\n

zeynep’le de, pek \u00e7ok arkada\u015f\u0131mla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m yoldan, yani HiTNet sayesinde tan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Ne yalan s\u00f6yleyeyim, ba\u015fta biraz snob gelmi\u015fti ama feci \u015fekilde etkileyici yaz\u0131lar yaz\u0131yordu. Mesela:<\/p>\n

the saddest poem of all<\/b><\/p>\n

Mayfest. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131m ne kadar da ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Akl\u0131m\u0131 en son bir cuma gecesi kaybettim, sinema \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131nda.
\nKap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131n, passenger seat’a oturdun, sonra da d\u00f6n\u00fcp bana g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedin.
\nBen de hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f gibi konta\u011f\u0131 \u00e7evirdim. Ka\u00e7\u0131rmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m en g\u00fczel g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeydi.<\/p>\n

Sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 ya\u015fam i\u00e7in televizyon kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda bisiklete biniyor, yemek yerine kepekli \u015feyler yiyor, kitapla g\u00f6z\u00fc aras\u0131nda 14 cm b\u0131rakarak okuyordu. Her steril insan gibi ajanda ta\u015f\u0131yordu. Ders aralar\u0131nda test \u00e7\u00f6zer diye dalga ge\u00e7tik, Bo\u011fazi\u00e7i’ni kazand\u0131. Ad\u0131 Nil’di. Ondokuz ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Batman’l\u0131yd\u0131. O, \u00f6lene kadar, “M\u00fcd\u00fcr b\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131na k\u0131zm\u0131yor mu?” dedi\u011fimiz, kocaman suratl\u0131, h\u0131rsl\u0131 bir yabanc\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ankara’da, Bah\u00e7elievler’de bir D\u00fcvero\u011flu vard\u0131r. Sala\u015f, pis bir kebap\u00e7\u0131. \u0130ki y\u0131l \u00f6nceydi, yine Ramazan’da, \u00fcstelik de iftar vakti oraya gitmi\u015ftik. Herkes ellerinde ka\u015f\u0131k, mercimek \u00e7orbas\u0131na bak\u0131yordu ki telefonum \u00e7ald\u0131. Nil \u00f6ld\u00fc. Yemek bitti.<\/p>\n

“Hem de nas\u0131l bir kand\u0131.
\n \u0130\u00e7imin a\u011flayan, memnun olmayan s\u0131v\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131.”<\/p>\n

“Sa\u00e7malama” dedik\u00e7e i\u00e7ime kapan\u0131yorum. Uzakla\u015fmak istiyorum. 7’de Kopenhag’da, iki saat sonra Stockholm’day\u0131m. Birger Jarlsgatan \u00fczerindeki Scandic Hotel Anglais’e yerle\u015fiyorum. Elime \u015fehir haritas\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131p Gustav Adolf’s meydan\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum. Burada istedi\u011fim kadar sa\u00e7malayabilece\u011fimi biliyorum.<\/p>\n

Asl\u0131nda Stockholm ka\u00e7mak i\u00e7in yanl\u0131\u015f se\u00e7im. Langholmen. Tutuklular adas\u0131. D\u00f6rt taraf\u0131 ye\u015filliklerle kapl\u0131, ka\u00e7mak imkans\u0131z. Ben de bir bara girip bir schnaps s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum. Barmen, “Emin misiniz?” diyor. Benimle dalga m\u0131 ge\u00e7iyor? Sand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan daha inat\u00e7\u0131y\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Gamla Stan’daki bir d\u00fckkanda Led Zeppelin tablar\u0131 buluyorum 250 Krona, hemen al\u0131yorum. D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fte kayboluyorum. Harita’da 25 numaral\u0131 yeri ar\u0131yorum. Ahlens ma\u011fazas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7erken indirim oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcnce i\u00e7eri girip g\u00fcne\u015f g\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc al\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

Bir Faberg\u00e9 sergisi var, me\u015fhur m\u00fccevherci. Rembrandt, Rubens, Goya. \u0130\u00e7imde bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 var. National Museum’un tuvaletini girip on-onbe\u015f dakika a\u011fl\u0131yorum. Renoir, Degas, Gaugin. D\u00f6n\u00fcp bir on dakika daha a\u011fl\u0131yorum. \u00d6yle min\u00f6r oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm sorunlar ya\u015f\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n

hidden meaning
\ngreenwich meaning
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Ankara’daki ilk senemde tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131k, ama aram\u0131zdaki buzlar\u0131n k\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131 beng\u00fc, alex, bet\u00fcl ve onunla gitti\u011fimiz Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon <\/i>filminden sonra oldu. Hatta hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, sinemadan sonra Anki’ye gidip bir \u015feyler yemi\u015ftik, Zeynep’in \u00fczerinde beyaz, \u00e7i\u00e7ekli bir h\u0131rka vard\u0131. “B\u00f6yle bir h\u0131rka giyen biri k\u00f6t\u00fc olamaz” diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm… O s\u0131ralar \u00d6ve\u00e7ler 2. Caddede kal\u0131yordum, evlendikten sonra Zeynep’in bir sokak yan\u0131na, B\u00fckl\u00fcm’e ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m ama daha az g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015febildik vakit yoklu\u011fundan diyeyim. Sonras\u0131nda zaten o da Bet\u00fcl’le birlikte \u0130stanbul’a ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131, Ankara’ya \u00e7eviri i\u015fleri i\u00e7in geldi\u011finde bulu\u015fabildik.. <\/p>\n

Onur’la evlendiler, nikahlar\u0131na \u00e7ok istememe ra\u011fmen gidemedim, k\u0131smet olmad\u0131. O zamandan beri de y\u00fcz y\u00fcze g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015femedik, \u00e7ok \u00f6zledi\u011fimi i\u015fte bir kez daha, sabah gazeteyi okurken fark ettim.<\/p>\n

E\u011fer bir g\u00fcn Eda’bi Mektuplar’\u0131 haz\u0131rlay\u0131p yay\u0131nlatabilirsem, bana s\u00f6z\u00fc var, kapak olarak resmini kullanaca\u011f\u0131m. \u0130nsan\u0131n tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131, sevdi\u011fi birini anlatmas\u0131 neden bu kadar zor ve k\u0131s\u0131r oluyormu\u015f!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

sabah gazeteyi kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rken, ak\u015fam televizyonda “men of honor“\u0131 vereceklerini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u00f6yle ah\u0131m \u015fah\u0131m bir film de\u011fildi lakin, bu filmi alex, bet\u00fcl ve zeynep ile seyretmi\u015ftik, o g\u00fcnler akl\u0131ma geldi (5 sene olmu\u015f). arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 uzun uzun anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m sayfalar yazmak ne zamand\u0131r akl\u0131mda ama bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ba\u015flayamad\u0131m, ama \u00e7ok ama \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fim zeynep’i b\u00f6yle bir vesileyle anmasam … Okumaya devam et “zeynep”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/381"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=381"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/381\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=381"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=381"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=381"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}