Neydi.. hah, \u00c7a\u011fan Irmak’\u0131n son projesinde ba\u015frol. Ya bu son olaylarla birlikte anlad\u0131m ki, \u00f6yle b\u00f6yle de\u011fil. baya\u011f\u0131 bir a\u011flak adamm\u0131\u015f\u0131m ben. Bir \u015feyi yapamay\u0131nca ya da bir \u015feyde kaybedince gerek\u00e7e\/bahane bulmam, ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131\/alt-yap\u0131y\u0131 su\u00e7lamam, bilakis kabullenirim ve bu kendimde sevdi\u011fim \u015feylerin ba\u015f\u0131nda gelir.<\/p>\n
Gel(in) g\u00f6r(\u00fcn) ki, bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131ya u\u011frad\u0131m m\u0131 da, hemen a\u011flak oluveriyorum, v\u0131r v\u0131r yak\u0131n\u0131p duruyorum. Sizlerin nezdinde kendimi ay\u0131pl\u0131yor ve dahi c\u0131k-c\u0131kl\u0131yorum. C\u0131k c\u0131k c\u0131k, \u00e7ok ay\u0131p, hi\u00e7 yak\u0131\u015fm\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
Haz\u0131r laf a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fken – Camera Obscura, ki kendilerini in\u015fallah bu y\u0131l\u0131n listelerinde, m\u00fczik kategorisinde g\u00f6receksiniz. sayesinde \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fim bir terim (“maudlin” – “kendine ac\u0131ma” demekmi\u015f) ve bu terim sayesinde haberimin oldu\u011fu bir kitap oldu (C.S. Lewis – A Grief Observed). Kitab\u0131 ald\u0131m be\u011fendim, alb\u00fcm\u00fc (Camera Obscura – My Maudlin Career) dinledim bay\u0131ld\u0131m, ilginize bilginize (Bet\u00fcl hele de sen<\/a>, e\u011fer daha evvelden bilmiyorduysan!..)<\/p>\n Sevgilerle kal\u0131n ey sevgili kari, \nB\u00fct\u00fcn topluma yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu a\u00e7\u0131k mektubuma bir hami\u015f de yak\u0131\u015f\u0131r hani: Jacob Holdt’u yazmad\u0131m, biliyorum ama k\u00fcst\u00fcm ona da, o y\u00fczden yazmam\u0131\u015f olabilirim. (Niye k\u00fcst\u00fcm? Gecenin bir vakti sayfas\u0131ndan sergide g\u00f6r\u00fcp de be\u011fendi\u011fim\/etkilendi\u011fim resimleri se\u00e7erken bir anda kendimi KKK’\u0131n (took my baby away) ana sayfas\u0131nda bulup da, browser’\u0131 kapat\u0131p, yetinmeyip bilgisayar\u0131 kapat\u0131p ve dahi yetinmeyip modemi de kapatmak suretiyle korku i\u00e7inde yata\u011f\u0131ma yolland\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve her an loglara bak\u0131p ha geldi ha gelecekler zaten oturma izninde de uzatmalar\u0131 oynuyorduk, tam olacak \u015fimdi korkusunu bana ya\u015fatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Neydi.. hah, \u00c7a\u011fan Irmak’\u0131n son projesinde ba\u015frol. Ya bu son olaylarla birlikte anlad\u0131m ki, \u00f6yle b\u00f6yle de\u011fil. baya\u011f\u0131 bir a\u011flak adamm\u0131\u015f\u0131m ben. Bir \u015feyi yapamay\u0131nca ya da bir \u015feyde kaybedince gerek\u00e7e\/bahane bulmam, ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131\/alt-yap\u0131y\u0131 su\u00e7lamam, bilakis kabullenirim ve bu kendimde sevdi\u011fim \u015feylerin ba\u015f\u0131nda gelir. Gel(in) g\u00f6r(\u00fcn) ki, bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131ya u\u011frad\u0131m m\u0131 da, hemen a\u011flak oluveriyorum, v\u0131r … Okumaya devam et “A\u011flak Adam”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3915"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3915"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3915\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3915"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3915"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3915"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nEmre ST<\/p>\n