{"id":4404,"date":"2010-11-05T22:36:29","date_gmt":"2010-11-05T22:36:29","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"-0001-11-30T00:00:00","modified_gmt":"-0001-11-29T21:00:00","slug":"dead-man-walking","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2010\/11\/05\/dead-man-walking\/","title":{"rendered":"Dead man walking."},"content":{"rendered":"

\"SeNeBundan y\u0131llar \u00f6nce (y\u0131llar dediysem, 10+ y\u0131l, \u015faka de\u011fil yani), girdi\u011fim bir laylaylay<\/em>\u0131n ertesinde, pek \u00e7ok \u015feyi yads\u0131y\u0131p, art\u0131k insan ne kadar s\u00fcnger \u00e7ekebiliyorsa o kadar \u00e7ekip, art\u0131k o ya\u015flarda ne kadar m\u00fcnzevi olunabiliyorsa, o kadar m\u00fcnzevi bir hayat\u0131 ya\u015famaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Do\u011fu Almanya’n\u0131n de\u011fil de, SSCB’nin y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 and\u0131r\u0131r bir \u015fey olmu\u015ftu benim cephemde: hani Gorba\u00e7ov olmasayd\u0131 da eninde sonunda da\u011f\u0131lacakt\u0131 (1), sonra da suyu \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 iyiden iyiye, ortaya \u00e7\u0131kan \u015fey \u00f6ncekinin o kadar anti bir \u015feyi haline geldi ki (tabii ki Putin de\u011fil, Yeltsin y\u0131llar\u0131ndan bahsediyorum), \u00f6ncekinin azameti de pay\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131 bundan, y\u0131prand\u0131 bitti gitti, hi\u00e7 olmam\u0131\u015f gibi bile de\u011fil de, bir \u015faka gibi oldu (2). T\u0131pk\u0131 eskiden insanlar\u0131n u\u00e7tu\u011fu bilgisinin, b\u00fcy\u00fclerin, ejderlerin zaman\u0131m\u0131zda ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 hal gibi.<\/p>\n

Bundan y\u0131llar \u00f6nce, i\u015fte \u00f6ylesi bir zamanda, bir hikaye yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m o anki halet-i ruhiyemi anlatan. Bu hikayemin ad\u0131 “Bir \u00d6l\u00fcn\u00fcn G\u00fcncesinden” idi ve \u015fimdi sonundaki twisti a\u00e7\u0131klay\u0131p spoiler edecek olsam da, bir \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fcncesini anlat\u0131yordu. \u015eakay\u0131 (latifeyi) bir yana b\u0131rakacak olursak, ger\u00e7ekten de \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f oldu\u011funun ne kendisinin ne de \u00e7evresindekilerin fark\u0131na vard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir fizik profes\u00f6r\u00fc hakk\u0131nda idi hikaye. Hikayeyi okuyan biri, do\u011fal olarak oradaki aforizmalar\u0131 sistemin \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, kokmu\u015flu\u011fu ile ili\u015fkilendiriyordu, anlat\u0131c\u0131 da onun bu \u015fekilde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmesine zemin haz\u0131rl\u0131yordu s\u00fcrekli olarak sistemden \u015fikayet ettik\u00e7e. Hikayenin benim a\u00e7\u0131mdan sembolleri ise farkl\u0131 idi: orada, benim ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m de\u011fi\u015fim ve asl\u0131nda art\u0131k eski ben olmasam da, beni tan\u0131yanlar\u0131n bunu fark edemeyi\u015flerinden dolay\u0131 eskiyi devam ettirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131yla daha da karma\u015f\u0131kla\u015fan ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131 anlatmaktayd\u0131m (b\u00f6yle yaz\u0131nca f\u0131kra a\u00e7\u0131klamaktan bile beter oldu, \u00f6z\u00fcr dilerim. Merak eden varsa http:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/page.php?page=docs<\/a> adresinden gerek bu hikayeye, gerekse di\u011fer birka\u00e7 se\u00e7ti\u011fim hikayeye ula\u015fabilir).<\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7en aylardan birinde, Charlie Kaufmann’\u0131n Synechdoche, New York<\/em>‘unu izledim. Filmi izleyip, hayran kald\u0131ktan sonra, oraya buraya bakt\u0131m kim neler demi\u015f, neler g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f diye de, link linki a\u00e7t\u0131, Cotard’\u0131n Sendromu (Cotard’s Syndrome) diye adland\u0131r\u0131lagelen, nam-\u0131 di\u011fer “Y\u00fcr\u00fcyen Ceset Sendromu”ndan (Walking Corpse Syndrome) haberim olageldi. E bu kadar giri\u015ften sonra, bariz olan a\u00e7\u0131klamay\u0131 yapmayay\u0131m m\u00fcsadenizle ama ne kadar tan\u0131d\u0131k ve bir o kadar da s\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131!<\/p>\n

E\u011fer bir insan, akl\u0131n\u0131 yitirdi\u011finden \u015f\u00fcphe duyabiliyorsa (standart misalim, Solaris), pekala hayat\u0131n\u0131 yitirmi\u015f olabilece\u011finden de \u015f\u00fcphe edebilir, etmelidir. Sadece kendisinin ger\u00e7ek, di\u011fer her \u015feyin alg\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcretimi oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen insanlar nas\u0131l varsa, di\u011fer her \u015feyin ger\u00e7ek fakat kendisinin sahte oldu\u011funu da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen birileri \u00e7\u0131kmal\u0131d\u0131r. Sadece Descartes yetmez (Ze Weld is geen enough.). Ama bu ba\u015fka bir hikayenin (“D\u00fcnyan\u0131n En G\u00fczel \u015eems’i”) konusu. Ad\u0131m Emre, soyad\u0131m Sururi, y\u0131llarca beni b\u00f6yle bildiniz, Emre Sururi’den reklamlar\u0131 izlediniz.<\/p>\n


\n[Resmi apartt\u0131\u011f\u0131m kaymak: AO\u00c7 Dondurmalar\u0131 Tesisi, K. Mara\u015f<\/a>]<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bundan y\u0131llar \u00f6nce (y\u0131llar dediysem, 10+ y\u0131l, \u015faka de\u011fil yani), girdi\u011fim bir laylaylay\u0131n ertesinde, pek \u00e7ok \u015feyi yads\u0131y\u0131p, art\u0131k insan ne kadar s\u00fcnger \u00e7ekebiliyorsa o kadar \u00e7ekip, art\u0131k o ya\u015flarda ne kadar m\u00fcnzevi olunabiliyorsa, o kadar m\u00fcnzevi bir hayat\u0131 ya\u015famaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Do\u011fu Almanya’n\u0131n de\u011fil de, SSCB’nin y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 and\u0131r\u0131r bir \u015fey olmu\u015ftu benim cephemde: hani Gorba\u00e7ov … Okumaya devam et “Dead man walking.”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[9,2,13],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4404"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4404"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4404\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4404"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4404"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4404"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}