{"id":5864,"date":"2014-09-29T12:24:11","date_gmt":"2014-09-29T12:24:11","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"2018-08-14T21:36:10","modified_gmt":"2018-08-14T18:36:10","slug":"sofia-kayseri-mustafa-mehmet-batur-yolculuklar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2014\/09\/29\/sofia-kayseri-mustafa-mehmet-batur-yolculuklar\/","title":{"rendered":"\u0421\u043e\u0444\u0438\u044f, Kayseri, Mustafa Mehmet Batur, yolculuklar"},"content":{"rendered":"

Ba\u015fl\u0131ktaki Kiril alfabesiyle yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kelime “Sofya”. Sal\u0131 ak\u015fam\u0131 \u0130stanbul’dan bindi\u011fim otob\u00fcsten 9 saat sonra, \u00e7ar\u015famba sabah\u0131 Sofya’da indim. Ge\u00e7en sene tam da bu zamanlar (1 y\u0131l \u00f6ncesinin 1 hafta sonras\u0131) gitmi\u015ftim ilk kez Sofya’ya, bu sefer aram\u0131zda tan\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131k vard\u0131. Saat erken oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in oteldeki odam hen\u00fcz haz\u0131rlanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, bavulumu b\u0131rak\u0131p, \u015fehir meydan\u0131n\u0131 gezintiye \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m, g\u00fczel bir kafede (Cafe Ma Baker<\/a>) iki sandvi\u00e7 ve \u00e7ok lezzetli iki bardak Earl Grey \u00e7ay e\u015fli\u011finde kahvalt\u0131m\u0131 yapt\u0131m, sonra yak\u0131ndaki Ivan Vazov Ulusal Tiyatrosu’nun kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki parkta oturup, bir yandan puromu i\u00e7erken, di\u011fer yandan da Haydar Erg\u00fclen’in “D\u00fczyaz\u0131: 100 yaz\u0131” kitab\u0131ndan okumaya devam ettim, rasgele a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m sayfalarda k\u0131smetime “Rouge ile Noir” \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Parkta otururken akl\u0131ma ge\u00e7en seneki kalabal\u0131k\u00e7a yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ilk ziyaret, “Rouge ile Noir”\u0131 okurken de Mustafa ile 1995’te \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z Do\u011fu gezisi geldi… O s\u0131rada yazacak bir \u00e7ok \u015fey de vard\u0131 ama \u015fimdi elimde sadece somut bilgiler (yerler ve eylemler) kald\u0131 malesef.<\/p>\n

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\nIvan Vazov Ulusal Tiyatrosu<\/a> ya da:\u00a0\u041d\u0430\u0440\u043e\u0434\u0435\u043d \u0442\u0435\u0430\u0442\u044a\u0440 – \u0418\u0432\u0430\u043d \u0412\u0430\u0437\u043e\u0432 (09\/2014)<\/p>\n

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\n St. Alexander Nevsky Katedrali<\/a> (09\/2013)<\/p>\n

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\nKayseri Gar\u0131, Mehmet Batur, Emre Sururi (1995)<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Bir gezi yaz\u0131s\u0131 de\u011fil bu elbette, ama yine de Cemal S\u00fcreya’n\u0131n “An\u0131msar m\u0131s\u0131n toros ekspresinden inmi\u015ftiniz \/\u00a0Biletlerinizden ibaretti ikinizin de kimli\u011fi” m\u0131sralar\u0131 d\u00fcn gibi akl\u0131mda. Neyse. G\u00fczel ge\u00e7ti her \u015fey, sa\u011folsunlar \u00e7ok iyi a\u011f\u0131rland\u0131m, d\u00fcn gece Ankara’ya d\u00f6nd\u00fcm, bug\u00fcn biraz yorgunum, yazas\u0131m (ve yatas\u0131m) var…<\/p>\n

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Rouge ile Noir<\/b><\/div>\n

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Haydar Erg\u00fclen, D\u00fczyaz\u0131: 100 Yaz\u0131
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K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ile Siyah desem olmaz, K\u0131z\u0131l ile Kara demek de olmaz, ille Rouge ile Noir olacak. \u015eahin \u00f6yle isterdi, biz \u015eahin’le Frans\u0131zca okurduk, daha da okuyacakt\u0131k, o \u00f6lmeseydi! \u015eahin benim en \u00f6l\u00fclerimden, 20 y\u0131l\u0131 ge\u00e7ti, bu kadar \u00e7ok zaman oldu\u011funa g\u00f6re, belki de aram\u0131za d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr, Frans\u0131zca bir ruh olarak \u015f\u00f6yle uzun boylu, yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bir g\u00f6vde bulmu\u015ftur; belki de eskiden g\u00f6rmeyen tek g\u00f6z\u00fc de yeni hayat\u0131nda a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. \u015eahin d\u00fcnyada bulundu\u011fu 19 y\u0131l boyunca beni pek \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtmad\u0131, k\u0131l\u0131ktan k\u0131l\u0131\u011fa girmedi ama, en eski, en sevgili ve en \u00f6l\u00fc arkada\u015f\u0131m olarak, do\u011frusu ilk kez beni \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtmas\u0131n\u0131 istiyorum: Ey \u015eahin, ey ruh, d\u00f6nd\u00fcnse Frans\u0131zca \u00fc\u00e7 l\u00e2f et.<\/div>\n

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Frans\u0131zca hen\u00fcz itibar\u0131n\u0131 yitirmemi\u015fti, Almanca pek reva\u00e7tayd\u0131, \u0130ngilizce ise s\u00fcrpriz yapmaya haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordu. Benim Frans\u0131zca’ya \u00e7ok hevesim vard\u0131. \u015eahin’in de varm\u0131\u015f ki, ortaokulun ilk s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131nda bulu\u015ftuk. Y\u0131l 1968 ve Prag’a bahar gelmek \u00fczereydi. O zamanlar, Prag’da bahar olunca, T\u00fcrkiye’de dallar\u0131 kiraz basard\u0131. Kavak yelleri daha sonra, o lise s\u0131ralar\u0131nda esmeye ba\u015flayacakt\u0131r. Frans\u0131zca’ya a\u015final\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yeniydi ya, T\u00fcrk\u00e7e’ye tutkunlu\u011fumuz tamd\u0131. Galiba \u00f6\u011fretmenlerin de b\u00fcy\u00fck katk\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131 bunda, matematik de \u00f6\u011fretseler; m\u00fczik de, Frans\u0131zca da \u00f6\u011fretseler, tabiat bilgisi de, \u00f6ncelikle T\u00fcrk\u00e7e’den sorumlu sayarlard\u0131 kendilerini. H\u00e2liyle biz de s\u0131k\u0131 \u00f6zt\u00fcrk\u00e7eci idik, ortaokulun duvar gazetesini \u00e7\u0131karmaya ba\u015flad\u0131k. \u00dc\u00e7 s\u0131n\u0131f arkada\u015f\u0131: \u015eahin, Sel\u00e7uk ve ben. Haftal\u0131kt\u0131 ve ad\u0131 \u201cEkin\u201ddi. K\u00fclt\u00fcr anlam\u0131na gelen ekin. Biz art\u0131k gazeteciydik ve \u201cyaz\u0131 i\u015fleri m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc\u201d diye \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131yorduk. Ekin’de neler vard\u0131? Neler yoktu ki, \u015fimdi hat\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum: T\u00fcrk Dil Kurumu uzmanlar\u0131n\u0131n o zamanki ad\u0131yla Eski\u015fehir Maarif Koleji’nde yapt\u0131klar\u0131 s\u00f6yle\u015fiden izlenimler, onlarla konu\u015fmalar, Hasan \u00c2li Y\u00fccel’in bakanl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaki Maarif Vekaleti’nce yay\u0131mlanan Terc\u00fcme<\/i> Dergisi’nden al\u0131nt\u0131lar, Villon’un \u015fiirleri, Eski\u015fehir Sinema Kul\u00fcb\u00fc’nde g\u00f6sterilecek \u201cHiroshima Mon Amour\u201d filminin duyurusu, dilde \u00f6zle\u015fmeyi savunan yaz\u0131lar, Mustafa Kemal ve Ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131zl\u0131k Sava\u015f\u0131m\u0131z \u00fcst\u00fcne Ceyhun Atuf Kansu \u015eiirleri, o y\u0131llarda ithal edilen ve b\u00fcy\u00fck tart\u0131\u015fmalar koparan Meksika bu\u011fday\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 yaz\u0131lar, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fler, \u015fehrin kitap\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131yla yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z s\u00f6yle\u015filer, gazetelerden kesti\u011fimiz karikat\u00fcrler, Do\u011fu Anadolu’nun uzak ve yoksul k\u00f6ylerine kitap, defter, kalem g\u00f6nderme kampanyas\u0131 ve o k\u00f6ylerden bize gelen duygu y\u00fckl\u00fc mektuplar…<\/div>\n
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Muhaliftik, az\u0131l\u0131 de\u011filsek de hat\u0131r\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131r miktarda muhaliftik. Fakat burup k\u0131rmaya, yak\u0131p y\u0131kmaya da o \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde muhaliftik. Belki Eski\u015fehir gibi mutedil bir co\u011frafyada yeti\u015fmi\u015f olmakla ilgili bir \u015feydir bu. \u0130nsan iklimi a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum bunu \u00f6zellikle. Bir t\u00fcr sakinlik vard\u0131 her \u015feyde, hemen hep \u00f6yle kald\u0131 Eski\u015fehir. Yerini bildi\u011finden olmal\u0131. Belki de nas\u0131lsa kimse kimseye sesini duyuram\u0131yor, derdini anlatam\u0131yor, i\u00e7ini d\u00f6kemiyor diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp, sesini fazla yormamay\u0131 se\u00e7mi\u015ftir, kim bilir. Sakinli\u011fi ke\u015ffetmeye h\u00e2l\u00e2 Eski\u015fehir’den ba\u015flanabilir bence. Edip Cansever yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ya, \u201c<\/i>\u0130nsan ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerin suyuna, topra\u011f\u0131na benzer\u201d<\/i> diye, \u015eahin de, Sel\u00e7uk da, ben de hem Eski\u015fehir’e, hem birbirimize benziyorduk. Benzemenin iyi bir \u015fey olabilece\u011fini ben hem o \u015fehirden, hem de arkada\u015flar\u0131mdan do\u011fru d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Pek heyecanl\u0131 bir \u015fey olmasa da, do\u011frusu bu farkl\u0131l\u0131k ve ayk\u0131r\u0131l\u0131k \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda insana insan oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlatmas\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan, kimse ikizini bulam\u0131yor hem, benzerlikler bulmak iyi geliyor bana. \u015eahin \u015fimdi hayatta uzun boylu kalsayd\u0131, benzerliklerimiz azal\u0131r m\u0131yd\u0131, \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131r m\u0131yd\u0131, klasik cevap, bilmiyorum, ben \u015fimdi \u015eahin’in vedas\u0131yla beni b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerdeyim, 7-8 y\u0131l kadar s\u00fcren o hummal\u0131 arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n hayalindeyim. Can\u0131m arkada\u015f\u0131m benim, h\u00e2l\u00e2 19 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcren arkada\u015f\u0131m! Arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve bunun ne kadar hakikatli bir duygu oldu\u011funu birlikte \u00f6\u011frendik, birbirimizle \u00f6\u011frendik! O zaman Cemal S\u00fcreya \u201c<\/i>Her \u00f6l\u00fcm erken \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr\u201d<\/i> dizesini hen\u00fcz yazmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn bu kadar da erken olan\u0131n\u0131 sende g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, eski yaralar s\u0131k s\u0131k a\u00e7\u0131lmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, yokluklar, yoksunluklar iyice fazlala\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, neler yitirdi\u011fimizi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck\u00e7e daha da neleri yitirece\u011fimiz korkusu iyice b\u00fcy\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. (Akl\u0131ma ilk gelen \u015fey, ne tuhaf \u015fu oldu: \u0130lk \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m reklam ajans\u0131nda reklam yazarlar\u0131 olarak \u00f6l\u00fcm ilanlar\u0131n\u0131 yazmama karar\u0131 alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k, yazmad\u0131k. Pek naifmi\u015fiz me\u011fer, sanki b\u00f6ylece huzurlu olacakm\u0131\u015f\u0131z, rahat uyuyacakm\u0131\u015f\u0131z gibi!)<\/div>\n
Frans\u0131zca’y\u0131 \u00e7ok iyi \u00f6\u011frenecektik, \u00e7evriler yapacakt\u0131k, pek sevdi\u011fimiz romanlar\u0131, \u015fiirleri as\u0131llar\u0131ndan su gibi okuyacakt\u0131k! Hayatta bir kez olsun daha g\u00f6rebilmeyi en \u00e7ok istedi\u011fim biri Frans\u0131zca \u00f6\u011fretmenimiz, demek ki 27 y\u0131l olmu\u015f onu g\u00f6rmeyeli, G\u00fcl Hoca, bize Gazi E\u011fitim’de ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 terbiyeyi ve do\u011fdu\u011fu yer olan Av\u015fa Adas\u0131’n\u0131 anlat\u0131rd\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn \u015eahin’le Av\u015fa’ya gidecektik ve o zamanki Gazi E\u011fitim’de Frans\u0131zca okuyacakt\u0131k. \u201cMuhalif olmak kadar, T\u00fcrk\u00e7e’yi de, Frans\u0131zca’y\u0131 da iyi bilmek \u00f6nemlidir\u201d derdi. \u0130kimiz de ona hayrand\u0131k, okul \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz Frans\u0131zca konu\u015farak y\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fck. Sonra bize gider \u015eahin’le Frans\u0131zca \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k ve ertesi g\u00fcn G\u00fcl Hoca bizi s\u00f6zl\u00fcye kald\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Bir yar\u0131\u015fmaya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc s\u00f6zl\u00fc s\u0131nav ve birimiz 10, birimiz 9.5 al\u0131rd\u0131k. Hayat\u0131 tam s\u00f6kemedi\u011fimiz o y\u0131llarda, tam s\u00f6kemedi\u011fimiz Frans\u0131zca ile \u201cTa\u015fral\u0131 \u0130ki \u00c7ocuk\u201d olmak ne g\u00fczelmi\u015f! Cahit K\u00fclebi’nin o g\u00fczel \u015fiirinin tam yeri de\u011filse buras\u0131 neresidir? \u201cKamyonlar kavun ta\u015f\u0131r \/ Ve ben boyuna onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm \/ Anlad\u0131m bu \u015fehir ba\u015fkad\u0131r \/ Herkes beni aldatt\u0131 gitti \/ Anlad\u0131m bu \u015fehir ba\u015fkad\u0131r \/ Fakat i\u00e7imde \u015fark\u0131 bitti!\u201d<\/i> 21 y\u0131ld\u0131r \u015eahin’i, 21 y\u0131ld\u0131r G\u00fcl Hoca’y\u0131 g\u00f6rmedim, ikisini de \u00e7ok \u00f6zledim. \u0130kisi de var oysa, \u201c\u00d6zlenirsin \/ alabildi\u011fine vars\u0131n da ondand\u0131r\u201d<\/i> denildi\u011fi gibi ikisi de ya\u015f\u0131yor bende.<\/div>\n
\u00c7ok okurduk evet, elimize ne ge\u00e7se okurduk, benim babam Almanya’ya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya gitmi\u015fti, \u015eahin’in babas\u0131 marangozdu, onlardan gelen har\u00e7l\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 biriktirir, ortak kitaplar al\u0131rd\u0131k. Yaz tatilinde onlar\u0131n marangoz at\u00f6lyesinde hem d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131 bekler, hem de alaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kitaplar\u0131n listesini yapar, s\u0131raya koyard\u0131k. \u0130stanbul’daki yay\u0131nevlerine mektup yazar, kitap kataloglar\u0131n\u0131 isterdik, onlar gelince sanki kitaplar\u0131m\u0131z da \u00e7o\u011falm\u0131\u015f gibi olurdu, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kitapl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zdaki kitaplar\u0131 her hafta sayar, numaraland\u0131r\u0131r, defterimize kaydederdik. Kararl\u0131yd\u0131k, eski-yeni demeden b\u00fct\u00fcn T\u00fcrk edebiyat\u0131n\u0131 okuyacakt\u0131k. Halide Edip Ad\u0131var’\u0131n Sinekli Bakkal<\/i>‘\u0131ndan T\u00fcrk’\u00fcn Ate\u015fle \u0130mtihan\u0131<\/i>‘na, \u00d6mer Seyfettin’in Efruz Bey<\/i>‘ine, Re\u015fat Nuri G\u00fcntekin’in Yaprak D\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc<\/i>‘ne, Orhan Kemal’in Gurbet Ku\u015flar\u0131<\/i>‘ndan Yalanc\u0131 D\u00fcnya<\/i>‘s\u0131na, Kemal Tahir’in Devlet Ana<\/i>‘s\u0131ndan Kurt Kanunu<\/i>‘na, Fakir Baykurt’un Y\u0131lanlar\u0131n \u00d6c\u00fc’<\/i>nden Amerikan Sarg\u0131s\u0131<\/i>‘na kadar pek \u00e7ok kitab\u0131 birlikte veya de\u011fi\u015ferek okur, sonra \u00fczerine konu\u015furduk. T\u00fcrk Dili, Varl\u0131k<\/i> dergilerini al\u0131r, bir g\u00fcn bizim de, buralarda \u015fiirlerimizin yay\u0131nlanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015flerdik. \u015eahin tek g\u00f6z\u00fcyle okurdu, y\u0131llar sonra liseye giderken, nerden \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fse \u201cK\u00f6r Ya\u015far gibi\u201d demeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kendine. Ya\u015far Kemal i\u00e7in yap\u0131lan anekdotu an\u0131msatarak, sa\u011f g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in, her \u015feyi sol g\u00f6z\u00fcyle g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc s\u00f6ylenir ya Ya\u015far Kemal’in.<\/div>\n

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Har\u00e7l\u0131klar kitap almaya yetmemeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, ben de yaz tatillerinde buldu\u011fum i\u015fte \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum, berber \u00e7\u0131rakl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7ayc\u0131l\u0131\u011fa, kitabevlerinden karpuz sat\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na kadar yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m her i\u015fte ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m haftal\u0131\u011f\u0131 harcam\u0131yor, cumartesi ak\u015famlar\u0131 ortak listemizden s\u0131ras\u0131 gelen iki kitab\u0131 sat\u0131n al\u0131yordum. Hemen \u015eahin’le bulu\u015fup, kitaplar\u0131n birini ona veriyordum. O ara ikimiz de kitaplar\u0131 okuyor, Pazar g\u00fcn\u00fc erkenden bulu\u015fup de\u011fi\u015ftiriyorduk. G\u00fczel g\u00fcnlerin bir sonu oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenmem i\u00e7in \u00e7ok zaman ge\u00e7mesi gerekmiyormu\u015f me\u011fer! \u015eahin’in babas\u0131 i\u015fleri bozulu\u011fu i\u00e7in \u0130stanbul’a g\u00f6\u00e7 karar\u0131 alm\u0131\u015f! Hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m en eski hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131, unutamayaca\u011f\u0131m ilk \u015fok bu oldu! \u00dcstelik tam da o g\u00fcnlerde Panait Istrati okuyorduk ve \u201c<\/i>Baragan’\u0131n Dikenleri\u201d<\/i> roman\u0131 \u00e7ocuk ruhumuzu da\u011fl\u0131yordu. Asr\u00ee Sinema’da ise yine Istrati’nin \u201cKodin\u201d<\/i> adl\u0131 roman\u0131n\u0131n uyarlamas\u0131 olan \u201cArkada\u015f\u201d filmini seyrediyor, g\u00f6zlerimiz dolu dolu \u00e7\u0131karken, bir yandan da arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n iyice peki\u015fti\u011fini hissediyorduk. Aradan \u00e7ok ge\u00e7medi, bir hafta m\u0131 ne, \u015eahin’i g\u00f6rmek \u00fczere marangoz d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131na gitti\u011fimde d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131 bombo\u015f ve kap\u0131s\u0131nda bir yaz\u0131 ile buldum: \u201c\u0130\u015f de\u011fi\u015ftirme sebebi ile \u0130stanbul’a ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131yoruz. Mehmet Usta.\u201d G\u00fcle g\u00fcle usta, benim ilk hakiki arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131 da g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcn ya, yolun a\u00e7\u0131k olsun yine de! Evlerine ko\u015ftum, babaannesi kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131 beni, d\u00fcn geceki trenle gitmi\u015fler! Ne zaman gitti tren? Ne zaman gittiyse tren, gitti gider dahi gider! Ve dahi gidi\u015f o gidi\u015f! Hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir haftad\u0131r ya\u015f\u0131yordum ya\u015famas\u0131na da d\u00fcnyan\u0131n y\u0131k\u0131labilece\u011fi akl\u0131ma gelmemi\u015fti. D\u00fcnyada nas\u0131l par\u00e7aland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, ayr\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131n insanlara yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 fenal\u0131klar, koskoca k\u00e2inatta bir tek ben kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m, herkes beni terk etmi\u015f duygusu, uzatmak neye yarar, 13 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131k ve ortaokulu hen\u00fcz bitirmi\u015ftik. Birbirimizden ba\u015fka arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131z, birbirimizden ba\u015fka kahraman\u0131m\u0131z yoktu, kitaplarla ya\u015f\u0131yorduk, onlarda sevdi\u011fimiz, hayran oldu\u011fumuz pek \u00e7ok kahraman buluyorduk, fakat bizimki kahramanl\u0131ktan da \u00f6te, ondan da de\u011ferli bir \u015feydi: Biz arkada\u015ft\u0131k.<\/div>\n
G\u00fcl Hoca bir yol \u00f6nce ikimizi de terk edip, ba\u015fka bir \u015fehre gitmi\u015fti. \u015eimdi de \u015eahin terk ediyordu beni. Haziran filan olmal\u0131 demek ki, okullar kapan\u0131r kapanmaz, s\u0131navlar biter bitmez \u00e7ekip gitmi\u015flerdi, on g\u00fcn kadar sonra mektubu gelmeseydi, ona de\u011fil, arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011fa k\u00fcsecektim. Mektubu geldi, Pendik’te oturuyorlarm\u0131\u015f ve beni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu. Bir ay sonra ve hayat\u0131mda ilk kez \u0130stanbul’a gittim. Pendik o zamanlar g\u00fczeldi, sayfiye yeri gibiydi, a\u00e7\u0131khava sinemalar\u0131 vard\u0131, Cem Karaca konser veriyordu ve ikimizin de \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi o \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu: \u201cAld\u0131rma be kalender \/ Bu da ge\u00e7er \/ Ge\u00e7er amma birader \/ Deler de ge\u00e7er!\u201d<\/i> O yaz hem \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fcyd\u00fc, hem de \u00e7ok iyi. O zamanlar Beyaz\u0131t’taki sahaflar, sahaft\u0131. Oraya gidiyor, Yeditepe’nin, Dost’un \u015fiir kitaplar\u0131n\u0131 kap\u0131\u015f\u0131yorduk, Metin Elo\u011flu’ndan Asaf H\u00e2let \u00c7elebi’ye, Da\u011flarca’n\u0131n Frans\u0131zca’ya \u00e7evrilmi\u015f \u015fiirlerinden Edip Cansever’e, Turgut Uyar’a, \u0130lhan Berk’e hen\u00fcz sevmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015fairlerin kitaplar\u0131n\u0131 topluyorduk. O bir hafta i\u00e7inde biz, \u201cTa\u015fral\u0131 \u0130ki \u00c7ocuk \u0130stanbul’da\u201d oluvermi\u015ftik. Eski arkada\u015fl\u0131klar resimlidir, hat\u0131ras\u0131 azizdir, ilk kez o yaz d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc bana bir resmini verdi \u015eahin, arkas\u0131na \u015funu yazd\u0131: \u201cDuvar\u0131n dibinde resmim ald\u0131lar \/ Ak k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t \u00fcst\u00fcnde tan\u0131y\u0131n beni.\u201d<\/i> O resimle ayr\u0131ld\u0131m \u0130stanbul’dan. Lise i\u00e7in Ankara’ya gittim. Yaz tatillerinde Eski\u015fehir’de bulu\u015ftuk, ben 1-2 kez daha \u0130stanbul’a gittim.<\/div>\n
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Liseyi bitirdi\u011fimiz yazd\u0131, 1973 yaz\u0131, \u00fcstelik bir bayramd\u0131, s\u00f6zle\u015fmi\u015ftik, yine Eski\u015fehir’de bulu\u015facakt\u0131k. \u015eahin hemen \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, Denizcilik \u0130\u015fletmesi’nde. Bekledim, arife g\u00fcn\u00fc yok. Bayram\u0131n birinci g\u00fcn\u00fc yok, ikinci g\u00fcn\u00fc yok, nihayet dayanamad\u0131m ve gidip babaannesine sormak istedim. Annem o zaman a\u011flad\u0131 ve bana s\u00f6yledi: \u015eahin ilk maa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn, eve d\u00f6nerken acele edip, raylar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnden ge\u00e7mek isterken, sa\u011f g\u00f6z\u00fc trene kapal\u0131, sol g\u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcme a\u00e7\u0131kken, \u015fimdi merak ediyorum trenleri sever miydi, ben hep sevdim de onu bilmiyorum, son seferine \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f. Ne o treni g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, ne tren onu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, topra\u011f\u0131 \u0130stanbul olmu\u015f. Benim bir daha hi\u00e7 hat\u0131r\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131kmayacak ve hep unutmak istedi\u011fim ilk \u00f6l\u00fcm bu oldu.<\/div>\n
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Y\u0131llar sonra \u00fcniversitede yeniden \u015fiir yazarken, \u015eahin’in \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcne 5 y\u0131l, 5 y\u0131l da yoklu\u011fun \u00fcst\u00fcne, ac\u0131n\u0131n, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ilk arkada\u015f\u0131 yitirmenin \u00fcst\u00fcne de 5 y\u0131l, ilk \u015fiirimi ona adam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, \u201cGiden\u201d oydu g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015fte, onunla birlikte \u00e7ocuklu\u011fum, ilk gen\u00e7li\u011fim de gitmi\u015fti ger\u00e7ekte, giden bir yolculuk b\u0131rak\u0131yordu \u015fehirde, hayat gibi pek zor, pek yorucu bir yolculuk. Bu acemi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn \u015fiiri ise acemi olacakt\u0131 elbette: \u201cBana y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc m\u00fc g\u00f6sterdin ey \u00e7ocuk \/ Umars\u0131z i\u00e7 s\u0131z\u0131s\u0131yla y\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz ak\u015famlarda \/ A\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 g\u00f6z gibi y\u00fcre\u011finden kayan deli su \/ \u015ea\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ayak sesinde \/ \u0130rkilip topra\u011fa kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00fcn \/ \u2026 \/ Susard\u0131n \/ Anlard\u0131m ki susmak ko<\/i>nu\u015fmak gibidir sende \/ \u2026 \/ – Nas\u0131l ay\u0131rmal\u0131 bunca tel\u00e2\u015f\u0131 \/ T\u00fcccar avazlarla dolu her yan \/ Kurtarmal\u0131 onu \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \/ \u0130\u00e7li bir \u00e7ocuk sevincidir insan \/ \u2026 \/ Sesin duyulmuyor art\u0131k y\u00fcre\u011finse s\u0131cak \/ Her \u00f6l\u00fcm k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sende bir ses bulacak.\u201d<\/i><\/div>\n

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Bu yaz\u0131 her \u015feyin yar\u0131m kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnedir. Yar\u0131m kalan arkada\u015fl\u0131k, yar\u0131m kalan gen\u00e7lik ve yar\u0131m kalan Frans\u0131zca \u00fcst\u00fcnedir. Bir de as\u0131l, ta\u015fra yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, iki \u00e7ocu\u011fu ba\u015fka kentlere s\u00fcren ta\u015fra yar\u0131m kal\u0131r. Hayat ka\u00e7 yerinden b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcyor, b\u0131\u00e7ak, han\u00e7er, gurbet ve bizzat hayat\u0131n kendisi ka\u00e7 kere iniyor \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcze? Hat\u0131ra yar\u0131m kalmasayd\u0131, hayat unutmaktan m\u0131 ibaret olurdu? Hat\u0131ra perdeliyor belki de hayat\u0131n k\u00f6t\u00fc y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc. Ben unutamad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6zlemek de\u011fil, onlar\u0131 hi\u00e7 unutmamak, hi\u00e7 \u00f6zlememek isterdim. Ke\u015fke burada olsayd\u0131n! Ke\u015fke burada olsayd\u0131m! Ke\u015fke burada olsayd\u0131k! Diye de uzatmak isterdim. Ne yaz\u0131k, bana yar\u0131m kalman\u0131n g\u00fczelli\u011fi bir \u015fey anlatm\u0131yor, \u015fiirsel bir de\u011feri olabilir, artistik, plastik, esteki bir h\u00fckm\u00fc de olabilir, ama yar\u0131m kalmak h\u00fck\u00fcms\u00fczd\u00fcr. Zayidir, zarard\u0131r, \u00f6mre ziyand\u0131r. Yitirmemek, yar\u0131na b\u0131rakmamak, iyidir beraber olmak.<\/div>\n
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\u015eahin \u00f6ld\u00fc, Frans\u0131zca’m yar\u0131m kald\u0131. Sevgili G\u00fcl \u00d6\u011fretmenim, senin ta\u015fral\u0131 \u00f6\u011frencilerinin yar\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fc, yar\u0131s\u0131 kald\u0131. Kalana yas\u0131 kald\u0131. Eski Frans\u0131zca g\u00fczeldi, yenisini bilmiyorum. Eski Frans\u0131zca’da z\u00fcppelik yoktur, yenisinde var m\u0131 bilemem! Zaten b\u00fct\u00fcn bu yar\u0131mlardan kala kala bir ‘Rouge’, bir de ‘Noir’ kald\u0131! Zaten hem derdimizi anlatmak i\u00e7in de bu kadar Frans\u0131zca yeter, de\u011fil mi?<\/div>\n<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n

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Ba\u015fl\u0131ktaki Kiril alfabesiyle yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kelime “Sofya”. Sal\u0131 ak\u015fam\u0131 \u0130stanbul’dan bindi\u011fim otob\u00fcsten 9 saat sonra, \u00e7ar\u015famba sabah\u0131 Sofya’da indim. Ge\u00e7en sene tam da bu zamanlar (1 y\u0131l \u00f6ncesinin 1 hafta sonras\u0131) gitmi\u015ftim ilk kez Sofya’ya, bu sefer aram\u0131zda tan\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131k vard\u0131. Saat erken oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in oteldeki odam hen\u00fcz haz\u0131rlanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131, bavulumu b\u0131rak\u0131p, \u015fehir meydan\u0131n\u0131 gezintiye \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m, g\u00fczel bir … Okumaya devam et “\u0421\u043e\u0444\u0438\u044f, Kayseri, Mustafa Mehmet Batur, yolculuklar”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4,1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5864"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5864"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5864\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6629,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5864\/revisions\/6629"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5864"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5864"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5864"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}