\u00c7o\u011fu zaman tesad\u00fcfler, ba\u015fka \u015feylerden haberdar olmam\u0131za sebep olabiliyor. Bazen hakikaten \u00e7ok tats\u0131z tesad\u00fcfler, \u00fcz\u00fcc\u00fc \u015feylerden haberdar ediyor, az evvel bir yak\u0131n\u0131m\u0131n uzaktan da olsa tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m, sayg\u0131 & sevgi duydu\u011fum bir akrabas\u0131n\u0131n vefat\u0131n\u0131 bu \u015fekilde \u00f6\u011frendim.<\/p>\n
Okumay\u0131 \u00e7ok arzu etmeme ra\u011fmen sonunda pes edip okumay\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m John Crowley’nin\u00a0The Solitudes<\/em> kitab\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6yle bir k\u0131s\u0131m vard\u0131r:<\/p>\n When he was very small he had been told the story of the man who was caught in a rainstorm and sought shelter in an old barn. He fell asleep in the hayloft, and when he woke it was deep midnight. He saw, walking on the rafters of the barn, a clowder of cats; they would walk the rafters and meet, and seem to pass a message. Then two cats met on a rafter very near where he lay hidden, and he heard one say to the other: “Tell Dildrum that Doldrum is dead.” And so they parted. When the man got home that day, he told his wife what had happened, and what he had heard the cats say: “Tell Dildrum that Doldrum is dead.” And on hearing that, their old family cat, dozing by the fire, leaped up with a shriek and cried out: “Then I’m to be king of the cats!” And it shot up the chimney, and was never seen again.<\/p>\n That story had made him shiver and wonder, and ponder for days; not the story that had been told, but the secret story within it that had\u00a0not<\/em> been told: the story about the cats, the secret story that had been going on all along and that no one knew but they.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn (11\/1\/2017), sabah kalkar kalkmaz fikir defterime <\/em>bu minvalde\u00a0akl\u0131ma gelen \u015fu c\u00fcmleyi yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m:<\/p>\n “Ama\u00e7lar\u0131 neydi, bilmiyorum ama ba\u015far\u0131ya ula\u015ft\u0131lar.”<\/p>\n San\u0131r\u0131m r\u00fcyamla ilgiliydi: r\u00fcyamda bir s\u00fcr\u00fc g\u00fclen, g\u00fcld\u00fcklerini gizlemeye, \u00e7akt\u0131rmamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan ama bariz \u015fekilde mutlu olan tak\u0131m elbiseli, b\u0131y\u0131kl\u0131, uzun burunlu adamlar vard\u0131. \u00c7ok rahats\u0131z oluyordum, \u00e7oktan kazanm\u0131\u015flar da, bizi hala bo\u015fu bo\u015funa, kedinin fareyle oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi bo\u015funa u\u011fra\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yorlard\u0131. \u00d6yle bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131ya uyanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n Ba\u015fka, bamba\u015fka \u00f6yk\u00fcler, arka planda, s\u00f6ylenmeden ge\u00e7ip gitmeler. Misal, bir \u00f6\u011frencim benimle konu\u015ftu\u011fu zaman, asl\u0131nda g\u00f6lgelerimiz (bir saniye, \u00e7ok kli\u015fe bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in kesin alakal\u0131 bir \u00e7izim\/foto bulabilirim… — bulamad\u0131m. Platon’un Ma\u011faras\u0131’na kadar bin t\u00fcrl\u00fc \u015fey buldum da, iki ki\u015fi konu\u015furken, \u00e7ok daha fazla yer kaplayan duvara yans\u0131yan g\u00f6lgeleri gibi bir \u015fey bulamad\u0131m), biraz ba\u015fa saral\u0131m: misal, bir \u00f6\u011frencimle konu\u015furken, y\u00fczeyde g\u00f6r\u00fcnen ikimizin konu\u015fur simas\u0131, diyelim ki fizikten bahsediyoruz, halbuki onun g\u00f6lgesinde do\u011fup b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ortam, \u00e7ekti\u011fi s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar, bin t\u00fcrl\u00fc bilim d\u0131\u015f\u0131 sorun, bende de var bir \u015feyler ama i\u015fte fizik konu\u015fuyoruz, mucize gibi bir \u015fey. B\u00fct\u00fcn varolu\u015fumuz \u00e7e\u015fitli y\u00f6nlere yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z projeksiyonlar\u0131n kesi\u015fimlerinden ibaret. Breh breh. Brehxit.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00c7o\u011fu zaman tesad\u00fcfler, ba\u015fka \u015feylerden haberdar olmam\u0131za sebep olabiliyor. Bazen hakikaten \u00e7ok tats\u0131z tesad\u00fcfler, \u00fcz\u00fcc\u00fc \u015feylerden haberdar ediyor, az evvel bir yak\u0131n\u0131m\u0131n uzaktan da olsa tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m, sayg\u0131 & sevgi duydu\u011fum bir akrabas\u0131n\u0131n vefat\u0131n\u0131 bu \u015fekilde \u00f6\u011frendim. Okumay\u0131 \u00e7ok arzu etmeme ra\u011fmen sonunda pes edip okumay\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m John Crowley’nin\u00a0The Solitudes kitab\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6yle bir k\u0131s\u0131m vard\u0131r: When … Okumaya devam et “Bazen…”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[10,1],"tags":[21],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6224"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6224"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6224\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6226,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6224\/revisions\/6226"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6224"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6224"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6224"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}