{"id":6920,"date":"2019-11-16T16:10:01","date_gmt":"2019-11-16T13:10:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/?p=6920"},"modified":"2019-11-16T18:43:57","modified_gmt":"2019-11-16T15:43:57","slug":"its-my-party","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2019\/11\/16\/its-my-party\/","title":{"rendered":"It&#8217;s my party&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Bu sabah f\u0131r\u0131na ekmek almaya giderken, kulakl\u0131\u011f\u0131mda Brian Eno&#8217;nun &#8211;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2018\/01\/30\/dansu-dansu-dansu\/#comment-14114\">daha evvel de buralarda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m<\/a>&#8211; &#8220;Lay My Love&#8221;\u0131 \u00e7almaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca, akl\u0131ma Chris ile Ed&#8217;in turna i\u00e7in dans ettikleri muazzam sekans geldi, daha bir keyiflendim:<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"840\" height=\"630\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/mYwX99iQ8Iw?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>Burada muazzam bir\u00a0<em>karde\u015flik<\/em>, bir dayan\u0131\u015fma var (\u0130ngilizcesiyle &#8220;fraternity&#8221;). Durumun benzerini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken, Catalina&#8217;n\u0131n vaktiyle d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131 olan Joy i\u00e7in, daha do\u011frusu onun i\u00e7in de\u011fil de, Joy&#8217;un iyili\u011fini isteyen arkada\u015f\u0131 Earl&#8217;e yard\u0131m i\u00e7in dans etti\u011fi (z\u0131plad\u0131\u011f\u0131) b\u00f6l\u00fcm geldi (<a href=\"https:\/\/mynameisearl.fandom.com\/wiki\/Jump_for_Joy\">My Name is Earl s02e02 &#8211; Jump for Joy<\/a>)&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><!--more-->B\u00f6yle bir karde\u015flik\/dayan\u0131\u015fma kavram\u0131n\u0131n bir ba\u015fka \u00f6rne\u011fine ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn Mustafa&#8217;n\u0131n payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir tweet&#8217;ten ula\u015ft\u0131m: <a href=\"http:\/\/www.birikimdergisi.com\/haftalik\/9742\/communitas#.Xc_ozVkzZ_t\">Aksu Bora, &#8220;Communitas&#8221; terimi \u00fczerinden giderek<\/a>, bu y\u00fcrek \u0131s\u0131tan birliktelik kavram\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fczelce irdeledikten sonra, yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u015f\u00f6yle bitirmekte:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>Emma Goldman \u201cdans edemeyeceksem, bu benim devrimim de\u011fildir\u201d dedi\u011finde, kast etti\u011fi buydu belki de.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Emma Goldman 19. yy&#8217;da ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f, bir anar\u015fist kuramc\u0131. Bu laf\u0131 da kendisini -g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde kitlelere- me\u015fhur eden laf\u0131. Asl\u0131nda tam olarak b\u00f6yle s\u00f6ylememi\u015f (<a href=\"https:\/\/www.lib.berkeley.edu\/goldman\/Features\/danceswithfeminists.html\">Alix Kates Shulman olay\u0131 gayet net bir \u015fekilde akademik ortamda a\u00e7\u0131kl\u0131yor<\/a>) ama bu \u015fekilde \u00e7ok g\u00fczel \u00f6zetleniyor, san\u0131r\u0131m o da \u015fimdi kendisine b\u00f6yle atfedildi\u011fini duysa, ho\u015fg\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bizzat kendisinden (Goldman&#8217;den) al\u0131nt\u0131larsak:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>At the dances I was one of the most untiring and gayest. One evening a cousin of Sasha [Alexander Berkman], a young boy, took me aside. With a grave face, as if he were about to announce the death of a dear comrade, he whispered to me that it did not behoove an agitator to dance. Certainly not with such reckless abandon, anyway. It was undignified for one who was on the way to become a force in the anarchist movement. My frivolity would only hurt the Cause.<\/p>\n<p>I grew furious at the impudent interference of the boy. I told him to mind his own business, I was tired of having the Cause constantly thrown into my face. I did not believe that a Cause which stood for a beautiful ideal, for anarchism, for release and freedom from conventions and prejudice, should demand the denial of life and joy. I insisted that our Cause could not expect me to become a nun and that the movement should not be turned into a cloister. If it meant that, I did not want it. &#8220;I want freedom, the right to self-expression, everybody&#8217;s right to beautiful, radiant things.&#8221; Anarchism meant that to me, and I would live it in spite of the whole world&#8211;prisons, persecution, everything. Yes, even in spite of the condemnation of my own comrades I would live my beautiful ideal.<\/p>\n<p><strong><em>Living My Life\u00a0(New York: Knopf, 1934), p. 56<\/em><\/strong><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>(bu vesileyle &#8220;<a href=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2018\/01\/30\/dansu-dansu-dansu\/\">dance with abandon<\/a>&#8221; deyimi h\u00e2l\u00e2 g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fczde \u00fcst s\u0131ralarda 8)<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\">Yani, diyebiliriz ki, e\u011fer i\u00e7inde inanarak, g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc olarak bulundu\u011funuz, i\u00e7inde yer ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir hareket sizi rahats\u0131z \/ mutsuz ediyorsa, bizzat o hareketin kendisi taraf\u0131ndan k\u0131s\u0131tland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131za inan\u0131yorsan\u0131z, &#8220;hareketine de!..&#8221; deyip, bo\u015fverin gitsin, inan\u0131n de\u011fmez. (&#8220;g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc olarak bulundu\u011funuz, i\u00e7inde yer ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z&#8221; k\u0131sm\u0131 anahtar kelime bu arada: yoksa kimse sizden i\u015finizden memnun de\u011filsiniz diye ekonomik hede h\u00f6d\u00f6y\u00fc bir kenara itip, istifan\u0131z\u0131 bas\u0131p, \u00e7\u0131kman\u0131z\u0131 beklemiyor, ke\u015fke hayat o kadar kolay olsa). Ama diyelim ki bir ili\u015fkinin i\u00e7indesiniz, partnerinize katlanmak zorunda de\u011filsiniz. Bir siyasi fikri birlikte savunduklar\u0131n\u0131z, &#8220;hareketin g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn daha da artt\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131 ulvi niyetiyle&#8221; sizin onaylamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bir \u015feyler yap\u0131yor, g\u00f6bekleriniz inan\u0131n ba\u011fl\u0131 de\u011fil, <em>selametle!\u00a0<\/em>deyin, b\u0131rak\u0131n gitsinler, ger\u00e7ekten de\u011fmez. <em>Kendi partinizde g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fczce dans edemeyecekseniz,<\/em> inan\u0131n de\u011fmez. Ben &#8220;k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken&#8221; \u015fimdi ad\u0131n\u0131 maalesef hi\u00e7 hat\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, internette de bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir filozof &#8220;insan\u0131n kendisini evinde rahat hissetmemesi bir ahlak problemidir.&#8221; demi\u015fti de, h\u00e2l\u00e2 derin derin feyz al\u0131r\u0131m o kaynaktan.<\/p>\n<p>Ne \u00e7ok ahkam kestim yine!&#8230; bir cumartesi \u00f6\u011fleden sonras\u0131 evde, bilgisayar kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda oturuyorum, ne zamand\u0131r blog yazas\u0131m vard\u0131, en ba\u015fta, hepinizi derde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm kay\u0131p mor kalemim hakk\u0131ndaki geli\u015fmelerden haberdar etmek vard\u0131 listemde halbuki: kalemim h\u00e2l\u00e2 kay\u0131p, h\u00e2l\u00e2 sevgili \u00f6\u011frencilerim kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a &#8220;hocam, kaleminizi buldunuz mu?&#8221; diye soruyorlar. Kalemimi bulamad\u0131m ama pervazdaki i\u011fneyi \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n akabinde sevgili Bar\u0131\u015f&#8217;la Sevil, &#8220;do\u00e7entlik dosyam\u0131n kabul edilmesi \u015ferefine&#8221; bana LAMY&#8217;nin bir ba\u015fka serisinden bir dolmakalem hediye ettiler sa\u011folsunlar:<\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_6921\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-6921\" style=\"width: 678px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-full wp-image-6921\" src=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/lamy_alstar_mor.jpeg\" alt=\"\" width=\"678\" height=\"452\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/lamy_alstar_mor.jpeg 678w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/lamy_alstar_mor-300x200.jpeg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 984px) 61vw, (max-width: 1362px) 45vw, 600px\" \/><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-6921\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">LAMY AL Star Mor<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>(Nergis Han\u0131m ak\u015fam m\u00fcjdeli haberi verince hayli hakl\u0131 olarak &#8220;\u0130smail Ethem works in mysterious works&#8221; diye yorumda bulundu 8)<\/p>\n<p>Eda&#8217;ya da ayn\u0131 serinin lacivertini alm\u0131\u015flar, &#8220;do\u00e7entlik s\u0131nav\u0131n\u0131 ge\u00e7me&#8221; hediyesi olarak. Tabii ikimiz de hediyelerimizi ayn\u0131 anda al\u0131nca akl\u0131mdan ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz olarak bin bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc Martin Mystere &amp; Sergey Orloff g\u00f6ndermesi\/esprisi ge\u00e7medi de\u011fil!.. 8)<\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_6922\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-6922\" style=\"width: 463px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-full wp-image-6922\" src=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/MartinMystere_Orloff_murchadna.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"463\" height=\"540\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/MartinMystere_Orloff_murchadna.jpg 463w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/MartinMystere_Orloff_murchadna-257x300.jpg 257w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 463px) 85vw, 463px\" \/><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-6922\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Peki benim niye pesk\u00fcvitim \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fcyorrrrr?<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>\u015eimdi hik\u00e2ye \u015fu: benim kay\u0131p sevdice\u011fim mor kalemim me\u011ferse 2016 y\u0131l\u0131nda \u00f6zel\/s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 say\u0131da yap\u0131lan bir \u00fcretimmi\u015f &#8211;\u00a0 &#8220;s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 ediz hun&#8221; takti\u011fini tabii ki ben de sizler kadar iyi biliyorum (<em>keriznikolaj &#8230;<\/em>), haliyle art\u0131k bulunmuyor.<\/p>\n<figure id=\"attachment_6924\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-6924\" style=\"width: 425px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-full wp-image-6924\" src=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/lamy_safari_lila.jpeg\" alt=\"\" width=\"425\" height=\"425\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/lamy_safari_lila.jpeg 425w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/lamy_safari_lila-150x150.jpeg 150w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/lamy_safari_lila-300x300.jpeg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 425px) 85vw, 425px\" \/><figcaption id=\"caption-attachment-6924\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">LAMY Safari Koyu lila (2016 pek bir lim\u0131t\u0131d ediy\u015f\u0131n 8P )<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>\u015eimdi, her yerde rahat\u00e7a bulunabilse alacak de\u011fildim. Ama tam da bu pazarlama stratejisi y\u00fcz\u00fcnden (ki, bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 yazan ki\u015finin iki \u00fc\u00e7 paragraf \u00f6ncesinde Emma Goldman vik vik diye ahk\u00e2m kesen ki\u015fiyle ayn\u0131 \u015fahsiyet oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlat\u0131r\u0131m!), &#8220;acaba, allam, yoksa&#8230;&#8221; \u015feklinde kayg\u0131lara s\u00fcr\u00fcklendim. Derinnnn derinnn aramalar sonucunda, yery\u00fcz\u00fcnde (= Google Shopping) iki tane mevcut oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendim &#8211; bunlardan biri olay\u0131n fark\u0131nda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan &#8220;normal kalem&#8221; fiyat\u0131na sat\u0131yordu, di\u011feri ise fark\u0131na varm\u0131\u015f ve&#8230; 2 normal kalem fiyat\u0131na sat\u0131yordu. Dayanamad\u0131m (<em>ya bu arzum gelecek sene depre\u015firse ben ne yapar\u0131m?..<\/em>) ve sipari\u015fini bir gece vereyazd\u0131m. Akabinde geldi ve \u015fimdi Bar\u0131\u015flar&#8217;\u0131n hediyesi olan mor, benim kay\u0131p sevdice\u011fimin yerine gelen lila ve bir de \u00f6nceden kaybetti\u011fim, Hamiyet&#8217;in ofis hediyesi olan setin dolmakaleminin yerine kaaaa\u00e7 y\u0131l \u00f6nce ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m <em>2. yeni<\/em> mat siyah arkada\u015f ile toplamda 3 Lamy&#8217;lik bir aile oluverdik, g\u00f6kten \u00fc\u00e7 lamy&#8230;<\/p>\n<hr \/>\n<h3>Tel Canbazlar\u0131n\u0131n Tel \u00dcst\u00fcndeki Durumunu Anlat\u0131r \u015eiirdir \/ Turgut Uyar<\/h3>\n<p>Sizin al\u0131n\u0131z al inand\u0131m<br \/>\nMorunuz mor inand\u0131m<br \/>\nTanr\u0131n\u0131z b\u00fcy\u00fck amenna<br \/>\n\u015eiiriniz adamak\u0131ll\u0131 \u015fiir<br \/>\nDuman\u0131 da caba<br \/>\nAma sizin ad\u0131n\u0131z ne<br \/>\nBenim dengemi bozmay\u0131n\u0131z<br \/>\nB\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fa\u00e7larla uyu\u015fmu\u015fum<br \/>\nKalabal\u0131k ha olmu\u015f ha olmam\u0131\u015f<br \/>\nSokaklarda yitirmi\u015f cebimde bulmu\u015fum<br \/>\nAma a\u011fa\u00e7lar \u015f\u00f6yleymi\u015f<br \/>\nAma sokaklar b\u00f6yleymi\u015f<br \/>\nAma sizin ad\u0131n\u0131z ne<br \/>\nBenim dengemi bozmay\u0131n\u0131z<br \/>\nA\u015fk\u0131m da de\u011fi\u015febilir ger\u00e7eklerim de<br \/>\nP\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l dalgal\u0131 bir denize kar\u015f\u0131<br \/>\nYan gelmi\u015fim diz boyu sulara<br \/>\nHepinize iyi niyetle g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorum<br \/>\nHi\u00e7birinizle d\u00f6v\u00fc\u015femem<br \/>\nSiz ne derseniz deyiniz<br \/>\nBenim bir gizli bildi\u011fim var<br \/>\nSizin al\u0131n\u0131z al inand\u0131m<br \/>\nSizin morunuz mor inand\u0131m<br \/>\nBen tam d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6re<br \/>\nBen tam kendime g\u00f6re<br \/>\nAma sizin ad\u0131n\u0131z ne<br \/>\nBenim dengemi bozmay\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n<p><b>Turgut Uyar<\/b><br \/>\n<i>D\u00fcnyan\u0131n En G\u00fczel Arabistan\u0131 , Can Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 1994<\/i><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/epigraf.fisek.com.tr\/?num=75\">https:\/\/epigraf.fisek.com.tr\/?num=75<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bu sabah f\u0131r\u0131na ekmek almaya giderken, kulakl\u0131\u011f\u0131mda Brian Eno&#8217;nun &#8211;daha evvel de buralarda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m&#8211; &#8220;Lay My Love&#8221;\u0131 \u00e7almaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca, akl\u0131ma Chris ile Ed&#8217;in turna i\u00e7in dans ettikleri muazzam sekans geldi, daha bir keyiflendim: Burada muazzam bir\u00a0karde\u015flik, bir dayan\u0131\u015fma var (\u0130ngilizcesiyle &#8220;fraternity&#8221;). Durumun benzerini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken, Catalina&#8217;n\u0131n vaktiyle d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131 olan Joy i\u00e7in, daha do\u011frusu onun i\u00e7in de\u011fil &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2019\/11\/16\/its-my-party\/\" class=\"more-link\">Okumaya devam et<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;It&#8217;s my party&#8230;&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[93,94],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6920"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6920"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6920\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6937,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6920\/revisions\/6937"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6920"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6920"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6920"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}