{"id":6973,"date":"2020-02-13T11:20:49","date_gmt":"2020-02-13T08:20:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/?p=6973"},"modified":"2020-02-13T11:31:22","modified_gmt":"2020-02-13T08:31:22","slug":"kis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2020\/02\/13\/kis\/","title":{"rendered":"K\u0131\u015f…"},"content":{"rendered":"

…When you gonna make up your mind<\/em>
\nWhen you gonna love you as much as I do…
\n(Tori Amos, Winter)<\/em><\/p>\n

Vaktiyle k\u0131\u015ftan T.S. Eliot eliyle yak\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m<\/a>, bu aralar yine k\u0131\u015f, yine k\u0131\u015f, yine k\u0131\u015f… D\u00fcn sabah (ku\u015fluk vakti) Ece’yi servise bindirdim, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu ama yar\u0131m saat sonra ben \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bembeyaz, karlar alt\u0131nda bir Ankara kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131k\u0131verdi!<\/p>\n

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Sevgili D\u00fc\u015fes’e gelsin: o ki beni bu sabah “Di quella pira” ile kurtard\u0131! 8)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

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Evvelsi g\u00fcn Jack London’\u0131n “To Build A Fire”<\/a> hikayesini okumu\u015ftum, tir tir titredim okurken, \u00fcst\u00fcne kafamda arka planda Camera Obscura’n\u0131n “Blizzard”<\/a>\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyordu. Bu noktada ara verip, \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015f\u0131mlardan hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kadar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015felim:<\/p>\n

Jack London’la \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumdan beri ho\u015fla\u015fmad\u0131m, olmad\u0131 bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc (it’s not him, it’s me.. 8P). Ben Raymond Carver severim (Jack London’la ne alaka demeyin hemen, iki dakika bir bekleyin yahu!). Daha ge\u00e7en Tom Waits’in Martha’s\u0131n\u0131<\/a> can\u0131m \u00e7ekti, onu dinliyordum, s\u00f6zler Raymond Carver’\u0131n “Where I’m calling from”unu getirdi akl\u0131ma (zaten Tom Waits\/Raymond Carver\/Edward Hopper — ayn\u0131 \u015feyler bunlar sonu\u00e7ta<\/a>). Y\u0131llar olmu\u015f kipat\u0131 okuyal\u0131, \u00fczerinden ge\u00e7eyim dedim, wiki’yi a\u00e7t\u0131m (ne de olsa art\u0131k g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fczce a\u00e7abiliyoruz, Allah senden raz\u0131 olsun\u00a0G\u00f6nen\u00e7 G\u00fcrkaynak<\/a> (ad\u0131yla san\u0131yla: ben bilmiyordum, Nergis Han\u0131m sayesinde \u00f6\u011frendim, siz de \u00f6\u011frenin!)), i\u015fte me\u011ferse Carver’\u0131n hikayesinde Jack London’\u0131n “To Build a Fire”\u0131na da de\u011finiliyormu\u015f, merak ettim, gittim okudum, \u00f6yle oldu.<\/p>\n

Camera Obscura’n\u0131n “The Blizzard”\u0131 ise \u00e7ok alakas\u0131z oldu ama hakikaten: iki-\u00fc\u00e7 hafta \u00f6ncesi yine 80ler damar\u0131m kabard\u0131, kendime bir \u00e7alma listesi olu\u015fturup<\/a>, sabah ak\u015fam dinler oldum:<\/p>\n