{"id":7107,"date":"2020-11-21T04:17:46","date_gmt":"2020-11-21T01:17:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/?p=7107"},"modified":"2020-11-21T18:56:30","modified_gmt":"2020-11-21T15:56:30","slug":"salinger-yillar-sonra","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2020\/11\/21\/salinger-yillar-sonra\/","title":{"rendered":"Salinger. Y\u0131llar sonra."},"content":{"rendered":"

Not a wasteland, but a great inverted forest \/ with all the foliage underground<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

“Hayatta telafi edilemeyecek \u015feyler vard\u0131r. On be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda evden ka\u00e7mam\u0131\u015f olmak gibi!” – Nergis Hn., 15 y\u0131l \u00f6nce bunu Murakami \u00fczerinden Walter Benjamin’den aktarm\u0131\u015f<\/a>.<\/p>\n

\"Colonel
Colonel Brandon : I knew a lady very like your sister – the same impulsive sweetness of temper – who was forced into, as you put it, a better acquaintance with the world. The result was only ruination and despair.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

<\/p>\n

Bug\u00fcn yo\u011fun ama bir o kadar da g\u00fczel bir g\u00fcn oldu. Epey yo\u011fun bir haftay\u0131, \u015fan\u0131na yara\u015f\u0131r bir \u015fekilde noktalad\u0131k, yatt\u0131m fakat uyku tutmad\u0131 (ki bunda Romeo y Julieta No. 2’nin katk\u0131s\u0131 da yads\u0131namaz). Pandeminin ba\u015f\u0131ndan beri kitap okuma yetene\u011fimi kaybettim. Bunu belirttik\u00e7e daha da somutla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor olmaktan korkuyorum. C\u00fcmle i\u00e7inde \u015f\u00f6yle belirtiyorum: “kitap okuma yetene\u011fimi kaybettim fakat buna kar\u015f\u0131n, art\u0131k ders videolar\u0131n\u0131 ve seminerleri youtube’dan rahatl\u0131kla izler hale geldim.” \u0130\u015fte bir de b\u00f6yle yan\u0131na kulp tak\u0131nca iyice somutla\u015f\u0131yor; ho\u015fuma gitmiyor bu durum.<\/p>\n

Sevdi\u011fim hikaye ve \u015fiirlerle tekrardan i\u015fe ba\u015flamay\u0131 deniyorum ne zamand\u0131r (biraz Lale M\u00fcld\u00fcr, bazen Borges – zorlaya zorlaya…). Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn okuyucuyu a\u00e7t\u0131m, hesapta son zamanlarda tekrardan okumaya koyuldu\u011fum Alex Shvartsman’\u0131n \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fim flash-fiction se\u00e7kisi “Explaining Cthulhu to Grandma (and other stories)”inden yoluma devam edeyim demi\u015ftim ama bir hikayenin ortas\u0131nda a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, biraz okudum, nerede kalm\u0131\u015f\u0131m hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131m, ba\u015fa do\u011fru atlaya atlaya gitmeye koyulmu\u015fken hikaye kitab\u0131n i\u00e7erdiklerine oranla hayli uzun \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca, bu sefer “herhalde ge\u00e7en Ece’ye g\u00f6nderdi\u011fim Ted Chiang’\u0131n “A story of you”su ya da o se\u00e7kiden bir ba\u015fka hikaye a\u00e7\u0131k kalm\u0131\u015f” diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fken, \u00e7anlar, hapishane ve okul anahtar kelimelerinden kar\u015f\u0131mdakinin Vonnegut’un “Hocus Pocus”u oldu\u011funun ay\u0131rd\u0131na vard\u0131m, anlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131z uzunca bir s\u00fcredir durumum i\u015fte b\u00f6yle… (ve hi\u00e7 ho\u015fuma gitmiyor).<\/p>\n

Salinger’\u0131n bendeki etkisi b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fcr. Glass’lar\u0131 \u00e7ok severim (“sevmek” ne derece do\u011fru bir kelime?), beni ger\u00e7ekten do\u011fru (uygun?) zamanda do\u011frudan etkilemi\u015flerdir ama t\u00e2bir-i caizse beni bitiren iki hikayesi, kitapla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131na izin vermedi\u011fi 22 hikayenin i\u00e7inden “A girl I knew” ile “The Inverted Forest” olmu\u015ftur<\/a>. “A girl I knew”u trajedisiyle hat\u0131rlar\u0131m, sanki sizin yoklu\u011funuzda (diyelim ki yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131na gitmi\u015fsiniz, ya da daha uygunu, komaya girmi\u015fsiniz<\/em>, siz d\u00fcnyadan habersiz uyurken biri gelip size a\u015f\u0131k olmu\u015f, yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 okumu\u015f, ya da komay\u0131, yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rakal\u0131m, diyelim ki bir arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131z var, arada s\u0131rada g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorsunuz, \u00e7ok \u00f6zel bir ili\u015fkiniz yok, genelde havadan sudan konu\u015fuyorsunuz, sonra g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeler azal\u0131yor, araya y\u0131llar giriyor sonra bir g\u00fcn kal\u0131n bir mektup geliyor, mesela annesi ya da onun hi\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z en yak\u0131n dostu yollam\u0131\u015f, i\u015fin k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc mektubun g\u00f6nderildi\u011fi adres sizin ba\u015fka bir \u00fclkedeyken \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z adresmi\u015f fakat mektup siz o \u00fclkeden ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan iki y\u0131l sonra gelmi\u015f, i\u015fte mektubu teslim alan sizi bilmedi\u011finden \u00e7ok da \u00fczerinde durmam\u0131\u015f (\u00f6zellikle \u00fcniversitelerde mezunlara\/emeklilere b\u00f6yle mektuplar (\u00e7ok \u00f6nemli \u015feyler olmay\u0131p, \u00e7o\u011fu zaman davetiye\/promosyon vs. olsa da) geliyor), umumi posta kutusuna konmu\u015f da, siz \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l sonra bir ziyaretinizde \u015fans eseri kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131yorsunuz (h\u00e2l\u00e2 okuyor musunuz sahi?), mektubu a\u00e7\u0131nca \u00f6\u011freniyorsunuz ki, i\u015fte o y\u0131llar \u00f6nceki ayak \u00fcst\u00fc tan\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131z me\u011ferse size derin bir a\u015fk besliyormu\u015f, hi\u00e7 a\u00e7\u0131lmay\u0131p, \u00e7akt\u0131rmay\u0131p, g\u00f6ndermedi\u011fi bir s\u00fcr\u00fc mektupta ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, ilgilerini, zevklerini, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerini bu mektuplarda payla\u015fm\u0131\u015f, sizin s\u00f6ylediklerinize, yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131za bu mektuplarda cevap vermi\u015f. Durumu daha da k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015ftirmek ad\u0131na, bu g\u00f6nderilmemi\u015f mektuplar\u0131 okudu\u011funuzda ne kadar da kafa dengi bir insan oldu\u011funun, ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f onlarca f\u0131rsat\u0131n fark\u0131na var\u0131yorsunuz ama i\u015fin \u00e7ok \u00e7ok daha da k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc, maalesef ilgili ki\u015fi bir hastal\u0131\u011fa yakalan\u0131p \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fczerinden iki-\u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131l ge\u00e7ince annesi\/arkada\u015f\u0131 art\u0131k daha fazla dayanamay\u0131p e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 tanzim ederken bu dosyay\u0131 bulmu\u015f, sizin bulabildi\u011fi adresinize “size ula\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 umarak” postalam\u0131\u015f. Ama i\u015fte her \u015fey sizden habersiz ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, geli\u015fmi\u015f ve telafi edilemez \u015fekilde \u00e7oktan bitmi\u015f. B\u00f6yle bir duygu vard\u0131 “A girl I knew”da (merak etmeyin: ne hikaye konusunda spoil yediniz, ne de benim ba\u015f\u0131mdan b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey ge\u00e7ti, sadece duyguyu anlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m – ilgilenirseniz bunun benzeri bir tasviri vaktiyle Alice Munro’nun Soon<\/em> hikayesinden bahsederken Susam Soka\u011f\u0131 \u00fczerinden yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m bu arada<\/a>).<\/p>\n

“The inverted forest”ta ise durum epey \u00e7etrefilli: hikayenin vaktiyle beni yerden yere vurup etkiledi\u011fini hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum\/biliyorum\/b\u00fct\u00fcn benli\u011fimde bu bilgiyi ta\u015f\u0131yorum ama bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n giri\u015finde al\u0131nt\u0131lad\u0131\u011f\u0131m iki dizenin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda hikayeye ve dolay\u0131s\u0131yla konusuna dair hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok.\u00a0HHGTTG’nin Zaphod’u misali, belki kendimi epey zorlayarak unutmay\u0131 ba\u015farm\u0131\u015f\u0131m, belki zamanla g\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcp gitmi\u015f ama tehlikeli sular. Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn merak edip okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m, gayet g\u00fczel, insanc\u0131l ilerliyor (\u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015f\u0131mlardan baym\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r biliyorum ama mesela Roald Dahl’\u0131n “Domuz”1<\/a>,2<\/a><\/sup> ad\u0131nda epey \u00e7arp\u0131c\u0131 bir hikayesi vard\u0131r, ona benziyor bu olays\u0131z (ya da nispeten olays\u0131z), az \u00e7ok beklenir \u015fekilde ilerleyi\u015fi – “Domuz”un ana fikri de, bug\u00fcn k\u0131zlar\u0131n izledi\u011fi Sense and Sensibility<\/a>‘de c\u00e2n\u0131m Alan Rickman’\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fi yanarak, ama olduk\u00e7a casual<\/em> bir \u015fekilde dile getirdi\u011fi uyar\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7\u0131nlatt\u0131 \u015fimdi. Hatta\u00a0 bulay\u0131m da ilgili sahneyi, ba\u015fa dekoratif fig\u00fcr diye koyay\u0131m… S&S’in Willoughby’si ama hele de Pride and Prejudice’\u0131n Wickham’\u0131 ile Emma’n\u0131n yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 o\u011flan\u0131n\u0131 Crowd’da g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz \u00fczerine bir yaz\u0131 bulup (“Want to feel old? The 90s Austen men are playing grandpas in the crown<\/a>“) \u015foka girdik (bir de benim kendimi “Which P&P character are you?” quiz’inde kendimi Wickham \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir yorum vard\u0131 ama d\u00fc\u015fes vaktiyle blog’una elektrikli testere ile girdi\u011finden, Almanya silinince, o da silinmi\u015f olmu\u015f anla\u015f\u0131lan 8)). \u0130\u015fte The Inverted Forest da o \u015fekilde gidiyor, \u00e7ok nefis Salinger trademarklar\u0131<\/em> (alameti farika<\/em> – ne g\u00fczel bir terimdir bu da bu arada, melodisi kendinden!) da var:<\/p>\n

(…) So she telephoned Robert Waner, had lunch with him, and asked him if he could get her a job on the newsmagazine he was working for.<\/em><\/p>\n

I think I’ll say here, and then let it go, that I am Robert Waner. I don’t really have a good reason for taking myself out of the third person.<\/em><\/p>\n

Corinne had not seen Waner in nearly four years.<\/em><\/p>\n

(…)<\/em><\/p>\n

I know nothing at all about their honeymoon.<\/em><\/p>\n

That’s a statement, not an apology, I’d like to point out. If I had really needed the facts, I probably would have been able to get them. (…)<\/em><\/p>\n

bu son al\u0131nt\u0131dan birka\u00e7 paragraf sonra Mary Gates Croft hikayeye girdi. O anda, bir anda bende her \u015fey su y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131! Okumay\u0131 b\u0131rakt\u0131m, olacaklar\u0131 biliyorum, sonunu biliyorum, y\u0131k\u0131m\u0131 biliyorum. Okumamak ad\u0131na bu blog giri\u015fini yazay\u0131m dedim ama h\u00e2l\u00e2 orada, bekliyor. Art\u0131k yatay\u0131m (04:11), belki uyumay\u0131 bile ba\u015far\u0131r\u0131m. (Evvelsi g\u00fcn Ece ile, Edebiyat Fak\u00fcltesi’ni geziyorduk: \u0130ngiliz Dili & Edebiyat\u0131, Alman, vd… her b\u00f6l\u00fcm de, yerle\u015fmi\u015f olduklar\u0131 koridorlar\u0131 bir s\u00fcr\u00fc tablo, poster ve al\u0131nt\u0131larla s\u00fcslemi\u015f, m\u00fcze gezer gibiydik. Sonra Thomas Mann’\u0131n foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fck (yan\u0131nda da \u00e7ok alakas\u0131z olarak Brecht vard\u0131) – “bak k\u0131z\u0131m, bu adam vaktiyle baban\u0131 \u00e7ok \u00fczd\u00fc” dedim. \u00d6yle bir \u015feyler i\u015fte. Bir de\u011fil, iki de\u011fil, hangisini d\u00f6veceksin…)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Not a wasteland, but a great inverted forest \/ with all the foliage underground “Hayatta telafi edilemeyecek \u015feyler vard\u0131r. On be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda evden ka\u00e7mam\u0131\u015f olmak gibi!” – Nergis Hn., 15 y\u0131l \u00f6nce bunu Murakami \u00fczerinden Walter Benjamin’den aktarm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4],"tags":[112],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7107"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7107"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7107\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7111,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7107\/revisions\/7111"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7107"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7107"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7107"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}