{"id":7594,"date":"2024-06-27T23:50:43","date_gmt":"2024-06-27T20:50:43","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/?p=7594"},"modified":"2024-06-27T23:56:28","modified_gmt":"2024-06-27T20:56:28","slug":"derin-bir-nefes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2024\/06\/27\/derin-bir-nefes\/","title":{"rendered":"Derin bir nefes&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>(<em>Cihanda<\/em>, Muhibbi&#8217;den \u00f6d\u00fcn\u00e7 ald\u0131m ya habibi beybi beybs! \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Rahat g\u00fcnler (\u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr). Ece s\u0131nava gireli bir ay olacak (20 g\u00fcn olmak \u00fczere), rahat bir nefes ald\u0131k, rahatlad\u0131k, kazas\u0131z belas\u0131z ge\u00e7ti (\u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr). Finaller bitti, b\u00fct\u00fcnlemeler bitti bitecek, okundu onlarca ka\u011f\u0131t (<em>Terziler geldiler. Durgunluktu o d\u00f6k\u00fck sa\u00e7\u0131k giyindikleri \/ Yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Tamamlanmad\u0131lar. Toplu odalar\u0131n\u0131 sevdiler. \/ \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc h\u00fcz\u00fcnle ge\u00e7mi\u015flerdi, ate\u015fe tapard\u0131lar. \/ Kent e\u015fiklerindeydi, a\u011flay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 duydular \/ Kestiler, bi\u00e7tiler, dikmediler ve gitmediler, \/ i\u011fnelerine iplik ge\u00e7irip beklediler<\/em> &#8211; Turgut Uyar, &#8220;<a href=\"https:\/\/epigraf.fisek.com.tr\/index.php?num=97\">Terziler Geldiler<\/a>&#8220;den detay&#8230;) Ne zamand\u0131r yaz\u0131lmay\u0131 bekleyen \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n makaleleri yaz\u0131ld\u0131, bas \u00e7ald\u0131m, \u00e7al\u0131yorum, bas g\u00fczel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kitaplar okudum, filmler seyrettim, oyunlar oynad\u0131m, m\u00fczikler dinledim. G\u00fczel bir hayat. Ke\u015fif grubu: Seyyah &#8211; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=9oZIOfx87Ww\">buradan<\/a> ke\u015ffettim (Bulut Gelir \/ Ethno Catalonia), <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=Y12_bYEiGgU\">buradan<\/a> bay\u0131ld\u0131m (Elindedir Ba\u011flama \/ Seyyah), hatta burada oynatay\u0131m:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Seyyah - Elindedir Ba\u011flama\" width=\"840\" height=\"473\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/Y12_bYEiGgU?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<!--more-->\n\n\n\n<p>Ceren Ka\u00e7ar ke\u015fke hep b\u00f6yle oynak havalar s\u00f6ylese, mesela <a href=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/playlist\/4YKXvg7YmsOY2GmehYXihb?si=6104870ac05844cb\">buradakileri<\/a> (bizim T\u00fcrk\u00fc playlist&#8217;i, Spotify). Kolektif \u0130stanbul&#8217;u demi\u015f miydim bir de? O zaman buyurun piste:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Kolektif \u0130stanbul - Ac\u0131mad\u0131 Yine\" width=\"840\" height=\"473\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/kf0k_5hSwpc?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Nergis Han\u0131m bu arkada\u015flar\u0131 entel dantel bir(\u015f)eyler san\u0131yormu\u015f, sonra bir g\u00fcn o mutfaktayken, ben salonda dinlerken Ciguli gibi bir bireye benzetmi\u015f, &#8220;nesi entel bunlar\u0131n, bildi\u011fin Ciguli gibi bir \u015fey!&#8221; diyerek salona geldi ve bir bakt\u0131 ki, ekranda <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=7rPBaOAoczQ\">Kolektif \u0130stanbul + Ciguli<\/a> &#8211; o noktada emekli binba\u015f\u0131 Ali Kocaer misali oldu\u011fu yere m\u0131hlan\u0131p kald\u0131, o g\u00fcn bug\u00fcnd\u00fcr birlikte dinliyoruz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Demi\u015f miydim, birka\u00e7 ay \u00f6nce Capon konserinde Krali\u00e7em Dee ile kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131k, nefis oldu, ge\u00e7en hafta da Eki&#8217;yle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131k Artur&#8217;da, son iki g\u00fcn kala, ona da \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr ettik. Ge\u00e7en ay, Kafka &amp; Lovecraft okuyan bir tan\u0131d\u0131\u011fa dayanamay\u0131p Vandermeer&#8217;in Annihilation&#8217;\u0131n\u0131 tavsiyeledim, severek okudu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. \u0130ngilizcesi&#8217;ni okur muydu bilemedi\u011fimden T\u00fcrk\u00e7esi&#8217;ni tavsiyeledim, \u00e7eviri nas\u0131ld\u0131r bilemedim. Annihilation vesilesiyle, ben de gaza geldim, tatilde kumda okurum diye Solaris&#8217;in kitapl\u0131ktaki T\u00fcrk\u00e7esi&#8217;ni yan\u0131ma ald\u0131m (e-book reader, kum, \u00e7ekindim biraz) ama \u00e7evirisi \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fcyd\u00fc be yav! Mehmet Ak\u00f6zer \u00e7evirisi &#8212; 30 y\u0131l \u00f6nce okudu\u011fum da (\u015fimdi bakt\u0131m Maya Yay\u0131nlar\u0131&#8217;n\u0131nm\u0131\u015f o, kitapl\u0131kta buldu\u011fum \u0130leti\u015fim&#8217;di) ayn\u0131 \u00e7eviriymi\u015f, ben nas\u0131l okuyabilmi\u015fim o zamanlar, gen\u00e7lik i\u015fte. Dayanamay\u0131p, e-book reader&#8217;\u0131 kumsala indirdim, \u0130ngilizcesi&#8217;nden devam ettim, o zaman i\u015f anla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131, \u0130ngilizcesi&#8217;nden c\u00fcmle c\u00fcmle bile de\u011fil, kelime kelime \u00e7evrilmi\u015f. Peki kitab\u0131 bitirdikten sonra ne \u00f6\u011frendim? Me\u011ferse benim okudu\u011fum \u0130ngilizce \u00e7eviri (Cox &amp; Kilmartin) de Frans\u0131zca&#8217;dan imi\u015f. Demek ki neymi\u015f? Leh\u00e7e -&gt; Frans\u0131zca -&gt; \u0130ngilizce -&gt; T\u00fcrk\u00e7e&#8230; Hoca da durur mu, yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015f cevab\u0131: e bu da tav\u015fan\u0131n suyunun suyunun suyu!..<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=FTsVlbkFyvA\">Soft Analog<\/a>&#8216;u ke\u015ffettim ben sonra. Hem de san\u0131r\u0131m Ankaral\u0131lar. Bana <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=igvvC4I7v2o\">Kentucky Route Zero&#8217;nun Junebug &amp; Johnny&#8217;sini<\/a> an\u0131msat\u0131yorlar tatl\u0131 tatl\u0131. Sonra Hades&#8217;le (oyun olan) ilgili bir video izliyordum (Hades II \u00e7\u0131kmadan \u00f6nce beta tester&#8217;l\u0131\u011fa hak kazanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ayr\u0131ca &#8212; Hades&#8217;i \u00e7ok \u00e7ok oynay\u0131p y\u0131ld\u0131zl\u0131 5 pekiyi kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan! 8) a bir bakt\u0131m duvarda ba\u011flama var! Ben <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=oksESAMg7WM\">o giri\u015fte \u00e7alan aleti<\/a> hep buzuki filan san\u0131yordum, ba\u011flama imi\u015f me\u011fer! (Ba\u011flama konusunda da neredeyse hi\u00e7bir bilgim olmasa da <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/c\/SevilayG%C3%96K\">Sevilay G\u00f6k<\/a> Hoca&#8217;ya a\u015f\u0131r\u0131 sayg\u0131m var). Tatilde bol bol WilderMyth oynad\u0131m, haftasonu da oynamay\u0131 planl\u0131yorum. Oyun bitti zannettim, me\u011ferse ilk chapter&#8217;\u0131 imi\u015f (&#8220;Age of Ulstryx&#8221;), tekrar oynamak i\u00e7in a\u00e7\u0131p da bir 6-7 tane daha g\u00f6r\u00fcnce bir sevindim bir sevindim! 8)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Solaris diyordum halbuki, de\u011fil mi? Solaris, Moon, Annihilation, ilgin\u00e7 kal\u0131plar. \u0130nsan\u0131n clone oldu\u011funu ke\u015ffetmesi, insan\u0131n kendi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ke\u015ffetmesi, insan\u0131n insan bile olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etmesi, insan\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 (misal bkz. Abre tus ojos \/ Vanilla Sky) fark etmesi&#8230; Pe\u015finden gelen kay\u0131ts\u0131zl\u0131k. Bu sene \u00e7ok g\u00fczel, edebi olmayan bir yazar ke\u015ffettim, Jules Vernes tad\u0131nda geldi bana, \u00e7oktand\u0131r b\u00f6yle kli\u015fe de olsa &#8220;ba\u015fka d\u00fcnyalara ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131&#8221; dememi\u015ftim, g\u00fczel geldi. Alice Morgenstern&#8217;in \u00f6nce ikinci kipat\u0131n\u0131 (&#8220;The Starless Sea&#8221;) okudum, pek be\u011fendim, pe\u015finden biraz ara verip ilk kipat\u0131n\u0131 (&#8220;The Night Circus&#8221;) okudum, o daha bile g\u00fczeldi. Filmi \u00e7ekilir mi acaba \/ ne kadar g\u00fczel kelimeler &#8211; tamlamalar &#8211; kal\u0131plar bildi\u011fimi g\u00f6stereyim vs. kayg\u0131s\u0131na girmeden g\u00fczel g\u00fczel yazm\u0131\u015f. Edebi yetkinlik yok ama d\u00fcnya kuruculu\u011fu, hikaye anlat\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 10 numara 5 y\u0131ld\u0131z, mutlu oldum okurken, \u015fu yaz aylar\u0131nda okuyacak bir kipat ar\u0131yorsan\u0131z \u015fayet, &#8220;The Night Circus&#8221;u \u00e7ok tavsiye ederim! (Yazm\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131m bunlar\u0131 ben?). Starless Sea&#8217;nin gaz\u0131yla, birka\u00e7 hafta \u00f6nce Alix E. Harrow&#8217;un &#8220;The Ten Thousand Doors of January&#8221;sine ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, \u00e7ok yetersiz geldi, bu aralar (%45&#8217;i civar\u0131nda) Beyaz Dizi&#8217;ye ba\u011flad\u0131 (D\u00fc\u015fes&#8217;e sordum bug\u00fcn, Harlequin Serisi&#8217;ne bizde &#8220;Pembe Seri&#8221; gibi bir \u015fey deniyordu, neydi?&#8221; diye de, sa\u011folsun o ayd\u0131nlatt\u0131 beni terminolojide). Ba\u015fka okuyacak bir \u015fey bulursam b\u0131rak\u0131r\u0131m (eski Murathan Mungan \u015fiirleri okumak istiyorum bu yaz).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Filmler, f\u00fclmler&#8230; Champions g\u00fczeldi (It&#8217;s always sunny in Philadelphia&#8217;n\u0131n Sweet Dee&#8217;si vard\u0131 Woody Harrelson&#8217;\u0131n yan\u0131nda), Holdovers \u00e7ok iyiydi, Poor Things &#8211; ki Lanthimos&#8217;un abukluklar\u0131n\u0131 severiz halbuki &#8211; \u00e7ok fenayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir s\u00fcr\u00fc \u015fey vard\u0131 akl\u0131mda yazacak, b\u00f6yle liste giri\u015f olmas\u0131n\u0131 da planlam\u0131yordum ama devam etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fal\u0131m bakal\u0131m bakal\u0131m. Bug\u00fcn Akbaba&#8217;n\u0131n \u00dc\u00e7 G\u00fcn\u00fc&#8217;n\u00fc seyrettim (<em>Condor<\/em> ba\u015fka, <em>Vulture<\/em> ba\u015fka imi\u015f bu arada, ama bizde o ayr\u0131m yok tabii haliyle), g\u00fczel say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131, Faye Dunaway hep \u00e7ok g\u00fczeldi zaten (o kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z\u0131n karakterlerinin kaderi de b\u00f6yleymi\u015f sanki, bir g\u00fclm\u00fcyor y\u00fcz\u00fc ne bunda, ne Chinatown&#8217;da, hele de Bonnie &amp; Clyde&#8217;da&#8230;)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p> Not al\u0131rd\u0131m defterlere ben eskiden, &#8220;blog&#8217;a yazay\u0131m&#8221; dedi\u011fim \u015feyler akl\u0131ma geldik\u00e7e. Zaten \u015funun \u015furas\u0131nda blog tutan ka\u00e7 ki\u015fi kald\u0131 ki? (<em>s\u00fcr\u00fcyerek g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz darg\u0131n beraberlikleri saymazsak \/ ne kal\u0131yor elimizde? \/ \u00f6lenler, \/ terkedenler, \/ bir de telefonlar\u0131, adresleri, kendileri de\u011fi\u015fenler \/ \/ vah\u015fi siyah atlard\u0131k; y\u0131lk\u0131ya b\u0131rak\u0131ld\u0131k \/ i\u00e7imizden kimse gidemedi Amerika&#8217;ya \/ kendi Amerika&#8217;s\u0131 da olmad\u0131 hi\u00e7birimizin \/ ya\u011fmur ald\u0131 \/ r\u00fczgar ald\u0131 \/ zaman ald\u0131<br>o vah\u015fi siyah atlar\u0131 \/ her \u015fey o eski r\u00fcyada kald\u0131<\/em> &#8211; Murathan Mungan, &#8220;<a href=\"https:\/\/epigraf.fisek.com.tr\/index.php?num=367\">Avara<\/a>&#8220;dan detay (gidiyorlar efendim, bal gibi de gidiyorlar.))<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ba\u015fka? Alakas\u0131z bitirelim: Galois ile Abel, Hansel ile Gratel, 26 ile 20, t\u00fcberk\u00fcloz ile kur\u015fun. Ya\u015flan\u0131yorum ben, \u00e7ok ya\u015fland\u0131m bile&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" width=\"251\" height=\"201\" src=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/ministry_synthpop.jpeg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-7598\"\/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n<p>Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn oyuncaklara cerrahi operasyon uyguluyordum, kopan yerlerini yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordum caponla, bir anda akl\u0131ma Miranda July&#8217;\u0131n John Hawkes&#8217;la ilgili muhte\u015fem sahnesi geldi&#8230; (izleyelim)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"Me and You and Everyone We know (Shoe Glue)\" width=\"840\" height=\"473\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/F10aDfxC_Kg?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>(Araba k\u00f6pe\u011fimiz Halime&#8217;nin kula\u011f\u0131 kolay yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ama S\u00fcnger Bob&#8217;un Plankton&#8217;unun anteni \u00e7ok u\u011fra\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 ger\u00e7ekten de.) <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=L0UYwc5HhVA\">B\u00f6yle bir \u015fey<\/a> hayat \u00e7o\u011fu zaman bazen (<a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=RySHDUU2juM\"><em>Every day I worry all day<\/em>&#8230;<\/a>)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(Cihanda, Muhibbi&#8217;den \u00f6d\u00fcn\u00e7 ald\u0131m ya habibi beybi beybs! \ud83d\ude09 Rahat g\u00fcnler (\u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr). Ece s\u0131nava gireli bir ay olacak (20 g\u00fcn olmak \u00fczere), rahat bir nefes ald\u0131k, rahatlad\u0131k, kazas\u0131z belas\u0131z ge\u00e7ti (\u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr). Finaller bitti, b\u00fct\u00fcnlemeler bitti bitecek, okundu onlarca ka\u011f\u0131t (Terziler geldiler. Durgunluktu o d\u00f6k\u00fck sa\u00e7\u0131k giyindikleri \/ Yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Tamamlanmad\u0131lar. Toplu odalar\u0131n\u0131 sevdiler. &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2024\/06\/27\/derin-bir-nefes\/\" class=\"more-link\">Okumaya devam et<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Derin bir nefes&#8230;&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[9,4,1,13,6],"tags":[158,156],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7594"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7594"}],"version-history":[{"count":7,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7594\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7602,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7594\/revisions\/7602"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7594"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7594"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7594"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}