{"id":8232,"date":"2026-02-12T08:38:49","date_gmt":"2026-02-12T05:38:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/?p=8232"},"modified":"2026-03-01T16:51:50","modified_gmt":"2026-03-01T13:51:50","slug":"o-bitmeyen-kislar-gibi-bencil","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2026\/02\/12\/o-bitmeyen-kislar-gibi-bencil\/","title":{"rendered":"o bitmeyen k\u0131\u015flar gibi (bencil)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Bilbao&#8217;da ev bakarken, yeri de hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, San Mames&#8217;in kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131 gibi bir yerdeydi, bakmakta oldu\u011fum evde \u0131s\u0131nmaya dair hi\u00e7bir \u015fey aparat g\u00f6remeyince emlak\u00e7\u0131 beni temin etmi\u015fti: &#8220;burada k\u0131\u015flar \u00e7ok \u0131l\u0131k ge\u00e7er, bir\u00e7ok kimse \u00e7ok \u00e7ok elektrikli radyat\u00f6rlerle i\u015fi halleder.&#8221; Bizde de Antalya i\u00e7in s\u00f6ylenir, de\u011fil mi: k\u0131\u015f\u0131n da klimayla \u0131s\u0131n\u0131yorlar diye. Alt\u0131noluk&#8217;ta Cino hakikaten \u00f6yle ge\u00e7iriyor k\u0131\u015f\u0131, birka\u00e7 ek \u00f6nlemle birlikte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Daha \u00f6nce de mutlaka s\u00f6ylemi\u015f, yazm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131y\u0131m ama bir daha s\u00f6ylemenin, tekrarlaman\u0131n bir mahzuru yok: insanlar\u0131n da do\u011fan\u0131n %90&#8217;\u0131n\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, k\u0131\u015f\u0131 k\u0131\u015f uykusunda ge\u00e7irmelerinin gereklili\u011finin ate\u015fli bir savunucusuyum. Pek \u00e7ok avantaj\u0131 var &#8212; do\u011fa kendine geliyor, biz toparlan\u0131yoruz bir g\u00fczel. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn, sabahtan ak\u015fama uyuyal\u0131m da demiyorum, arabaya binmesek, menzilimizi evimizden en fazla 1 &#8211; 1.5 km mesafeye k\u0131s\u0131tlasak zaten gerisi kendili\u011finden gelir. \u0130leti\u015fimi minimumda tutsak, herkes kendi i\u00e7ine baksa, en yak\u0131n\u0131ndakilerin ilgisine mazhar olsa, kitaplar okunsa, hikayeler anlat\u0131lsa, uyunsa, kendimize gelsek, bahar, yaz i\u00e7in fikirler bulsak.<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" width=\"816\" height=\"612\" src=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/IMG_20260130_115950.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-8233\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/IMG_20260130_115950.jpg 816w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/IMG_20260130_115950-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/IMG_20260130_115950-768x576.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 984px) 61vw, (max-width: 1362px) 45vw, 600px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Yasak \u015eehir, Pekin, Tar\u0131k Turna<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n<!--more-->\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00fcnayd\u0131n! (Burada saat 12:14 oldu\u011funa g\u00f6re, T\u00fcrkiye&#8217;de 7:14, kalkm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r bir per\u015fembe sabah\u0131na&#8230; g\u00fcnayd\u0131n!). Burada \u00c7in Yeni Y\u0131l\u0131 (\u015eubat\u0131n 16&#8217;s\u0131 gecesi Y\u0131lan Y\u0131l\u0131&#8217;n\u0131 bitirip, At Y\u0131l\u0131&#8217;na giriyoruz), o nedenle uzunca bir s\u00fcredir tatiliz, bir m\u00fcddet daha tatilde olaca\u011f\u0131z. Bo\u015f durmuyorum tabii, bo\u015f \u00fcniversitede \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya -biraz daha az yo\u011fun olarak olsa da- devam ediyorum, geziyoruz da (bu cumartesi k\u0131smetse 4 g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne bir Tokyo yap\u0131p, yeni y\u0131la orada girip gelece\u011fiz 8).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131\u015f! Bir arkada\u015f\u0131ma da yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fczere, &#8220;havaalanlar\u0131nda oradan oraya gitmeyi, bir yerlere yeti\u015fme tela\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sevmiyorum&#8221; diyebilirsiniz, &#8220;s\u0131ralarda beklemeyi sevmiyorum&#8221; da diyebilirsiniz. Muhatab\u0131n\u0131z da \u00e7ok do\u011fal olarak size &#8220;eee, kim sever ki zaten bunlar\u0131?&#8221; diye kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verebilir, hakk\u0131d\u0131r. Ama k\u0131\u015f\u0131 seven insanlar (ikisi benim arkada\u015f\u0131m hatta!) var! &#8220;K\u0131\u015f\u0131 sevmiyorum!&#8221; dedi\u011finizde &#8220;Aaaa, \u00f6yle deme bak, \u015fusu \u015fusu var mesela&#8230; benim en sevdi\u011fim mevsim.&#8221; diyebiliyorlar. Ben kendi pay\u0131ma ortaokuldaki yokluk g\u00fcnlerimden beri bu kadar \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm bir k\u0131\u015f ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimi hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. \u015eanghay \u00e7ok so\u011fuk de\u011fil, malum &#8220;\u0131l\u0131man&#8221; iklim ama \u015eanghay kesinlikle k\u0131\u015fa haz\u0131rl\u0131kl\u0131 de\u011fil. Sevgili Gazi&#8217;nin deyi\u015fiyle: &#8220;klimalar \u0131s\u0131nmak i\u00e7in yap\u0131lmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r!&#8221;. Klimalar yetmiyor (<em>&#8220;Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold<\/em>&#8221;  | Yeats &#8211; The Second Coming).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00fcnler ge\u00e7iyor (art\u0131k \u0131s\u0131n\u0131yoruz), bir \u015feyler yaz\u0131p, siliyorum (k\u0131\u015f\u0131n insan\u0131n morali de az biraz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor), yar\u0131n h\u00fcsniya&#8217;n\u0131n do\u011fumunun 99. y\u0131l d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc &#8212; \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fler, \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015flerle epey kendine-yeter (&#8220;self-sufficient&#8221;) bir say\u0131ya eri\u015fmi\u015fler. D\u00fcn metroda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, zaten ayn\u0131 \u015feyi 30 sene evvel de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm: bug\u00fcn biri di\u011ferine hikaye anlatan, di\u011feri onu ilgiyle dinleyen iki ki\u015fi varsa, 100 y\u0131l sonra hikaye anlatan da kalmayacak, hikayeyi dinleyen de. Hikaye ne kadar g\u00fczel olursa olsun. Sonra insanlar belki onlar\u0131 hikayeye \u00e7evirecekler, olduklar\u0131ndan farkl\u0131 bir hale b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcp kendi ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131ndan \u00e7ok daha uzun bir zaman daha varolmaya devam edecekler bu suretleriyle, \u00e7ok ilgin\u00e7 \u015f\u00fcphesiz (+ bir de hikayenin kendisi). Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn -sonra- Memet Baydur&#8217;un &#8220;Sevgi Ayaklar\u0131&#8221; oyunundan &#8220;\u00dcz\u00fcnt\u00fclerimizi \u00f6fke san\u0131yoruz.&#8221; laf\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlad\u0131m. K\u0131\u015f, iyi bir mevsim de\u011fil. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>D\u00fcn Cowboy Bebop ti\u015f\u00f6rt\u00fc sipari\u015fledim, yolda \u015fimdi, boyunun tutmas\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcmit ediyorum (\u015fimdiye de\u011fin genelde tuttu), \u015f\u00f6yle de estetik bir \u015fey:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" width=\"800\" height=\"800\" src=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/cowboy_bebop_tshirt.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-8235\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/cowboy_bebop_tshirt.png 800w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/cowboy_bebop_tshirt-300x300.png 300w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/cowboy_bebop_tshirt-150x150.png 150w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/cowboy_bebop_tshirt-768x768.png 768w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 984px) 61vw, (max-width: 1362px) 45vw, 600px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>26 b\u00f6l\u00fcm tekmili birden internet ar\u015fivinde buldum bir de, onlar\u0131 da arka planda indiriyorum, yeniden seyretmenin zaman\u0131 \u00e7oktan gelmi\u015fti. Scott Lynch&#8217;in &#8220;Gentlemen Bastards&#8221; serisini okuyorum bir yandan da (ChatGPT&#8217;ye sormu\u015ftum: &#8220;Shadow &amp; Bone&#8217;u sevmeyip, Six of Crows ile The Crooked Kingdom&#8217;a bay\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, var m\u0131d\u0131r bana \u00f6nerin?&#8221; diye, o zaman tavsiyelemi\u015fti bu seriyi de, &#8220;Lies of Locke Lamora&#8221; ile ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7lemeye, \u015fimdi ikinci kipat olan &#8220;Red Seas Under Red Skies&#8221;\u0131yla devam ediyorum (<em>Casino heist <\/em>\u015feklinde gayet g\u00fczel ba\u015flay\u0131p ilerlemi\u015fti ki, an itibar\u0131yla korsan kitab\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc!.. \ud83e\udd37\ud83c\udffd\u200d\u2642\ufe0f) Gayet g\u00fczel, \u00e7erezlik, diziye uyarlanabilitesi olan bir \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma, Locke&#8217;un rol\u00fcn\u00fc de Chris Pine \u00e7ok s\u00fcper canland\u0131r\u0131r bence (DnD: Honor Among Thieves&#8217;de g\u00f6stermi\u015fti bu konuda kendini).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p id=\"EmineTeyze\">D\u0131\u015far\u0131s\u0131 g\u00fcne\u015fli, parlak, 15 derece imi\u015f, birazdan bir \u015feyler yemeye \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131m, b\u00fcy\u00fck ihtimalle &#8220;Murat A\u011fabey&#8221;den roujiamo hem\u00e7ilerim (\u00f6nceden yazm\u0131\u015f m\u0131y\u0131m diye d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakm\u0131yorum: &#8220;Murat A\u011fabey&#8221; bizim buradaki &#8220;oto-sanayi&#8221; dedi\u011fimiz b\u00f6lgede (Kuzey Kap\u0131s\u0131&#8217;n\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131) helal esnaf lokantas\u0131 i\u015fleten bir a\u011fabeyimiz &#8212; ad\u0131 tabii ki &#8220;Murat&#8221; de\u011fil, bilmiyoruz bile hatta \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bizim \u00c7ince&#8217;miz yetersiz kal\u0131yor o kadar sohbete. T\u0131pk\u0131 nefis noodle&#8217;c\u0131m\u0131z &#8220;Emine Teyze&#8221; (ki, ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn &#8220;Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon&#8221;\u0131 seyrederken fark ettik ki, oradaki Jade Fox&#8217;u oynayan aktrisin t\u00e2 kendisi, yani bu kadar benzerlik olur) ve menemenli pilavc\u0131m\u0131z &#8220;Ay\u015fe Teyze&#8221; gibi, kendilerine uygun buldu\u011fumuz takma isimler bunlar). Bo\u011faz\u0131m sabaha g\u00f6re daha iyice gibi (d\u00fcnden beri k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131k var \u00fczerimde, \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fck, bo\u011faz, burun biraz, kafada baloncuklar&#8230;), \u015f\u00f6yle bol kolajenli noodle beni kendime getirir (in\u015fallah).<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle b\u00f6yle sevgili internet ahalisi, ey sevgili k\u00e2ri, ben buraday\u0131m, bu hallerdeyim. Ad\u0131m Mesut, soyad\u0131m Bahtiyar, &#8230; , Mesut Bahtiyar&#8217;dan bloglar okudunuz. Ey k\u0131\u015f sana, art\u0131k veda, sen git g\u00fcle g\u00fcle, <em>yine k\u0131\u015f, yine k\u0131\u015f, yine k\u0131\u015f, b\u00fct\u00fcn emelleri karanl\u0131kta bir a\u011flayan duman sarm\u0131\u015f.<\/em>..<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" width=\"816\" height=\"612\" src=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/IMG_20260130_120018.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-8236\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/IMG_20260130_120018.jpg 816w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/IMG_20260130_120018-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/IMG_20260130_120018-768x576.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 984px) 61vw, (max-width: 1362px) 45vw, 600px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\">Yasak \u015eehir, Pekin, Flash Hundred-Yard Dash<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Sonradan &#8220;edit&#8221;:<\/em> Bunlar\u0131 yazd\u0131ktan sonra haz\u0131rlan\u0131p d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m, Murat A\u011fabey&#8217;e gittim, yan\u0131mda kupamla \u00e7ay\u0131m\u0131 da g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm, orada sipari\u015fi vermeden \u00f6nden s\u0131cak suyumu ekledim. Bir g\u00fczel koca kase extra etli noodle ile roujaimo yedim; \u00fcst\u00fcne T\u00fcrkiye&#8217;deymi\u015f\u00e7esine \u00e7ay\u0131m\u0131 yudumlad\u0131m. Oradan kargo merkezine u\u011fray\u0131p bekleyen kolileri ald\u0131m, bisikletin sepetine ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn alm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fum lastikli kancalarla bir g\u00fczel sabitledim, ofise geldim, server&#8217;a inmi\u015f olan Cowboy Bebop&#8217;lar\u0131 USB&#8217;ye \u00e7ektim, eve geldim \u015fimdi. Hava \u00e7ok g\u00fczeldi, g\u00fcnl\u00fck g\u00fcne\u015flik. Havan\u0131n durumu benim durumuma g\u00f6re \u015fekillenmeyece\u011fine g\u00f6re, benim durumum havaya g\u00f6re \u015fekilleniyor demek ki, keyfim yerine geldi \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, hava g\u00fczel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bilbao&#8217;da ev bakarken, yeri de hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, San Mames&#8217;in kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131 gibi bir yerdeydi, bakmakta oldu\u011fum evde \u0131s\u0131nmaya dair hi\u00e7bir \u015fey aparat g\u00f6remeyince emlak\u00e7\u0131 beni temin etmi\u015fti: &#8220;burada k\u0131\u015flar \u00e7ok \u0131l\u0131k ge\u00e7er, bir\u00e7ok kimse \u00e7ok \u00e7ok elektrikli radyat\u00f6rlerle i\u015fi halleder.&#8221; Bizde de Antalya i\u00e7in s\u00f6ylenir, de\u011fil mi: k\u0131\u015f\u0131n da klimayla \u0131s\u0131n\u0131yorlar diye. Alt\u0131noluk&#8217;ta Cino hakikaten \u00f6yle ge\u00e7iriyor &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/2026\/02\/12\/o-bitmeyen-kislar-gibi-bencil\/\" class=\"more-link\">Okumaya devam et<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;o bitmeyen k\u0131\u015flar gibi (bencil)&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[83],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8232"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8232"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8232\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8364,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8232\/revisions\/8364"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8232"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8232"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.emresururi.com\/blogs\/sururi\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8232"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}